here we go again
 

im sat here thinking about my life,well lack of life no girlfriend, no friends, quit my job today and just cant take anymore. people say to their single friends wait for a good man. well im not a good man. ive got problems, ive got addictions, im just a man. ive tried ending it many times but always survive so i believe god has me here for a reason but what is that reason??? to suffer???

Are you drinking or recently sober Dan? (forgive me but it's hard to keep track of 150 thousand backstories :))

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What's going on dan, I see you started a couple threads today, are you drinking or something else going on? People are here to help.

I know what you're saying. I'm not even pursuing anything close to a relationship because I know I'm too screwed up right now. But I also know that with recovery, I will, at some point, be stable again. Intimacy triggers my ptSD so there's a possibility that I will never be ready. I just take it one day at a time and work on putting the pieces of my soul back together. I am getting well for me, to be the best me I can be.

You can do this too. But the addictions must be dealt with first. If you choose your addictions over getting well, you will continue to suffer. But that isn't your purpose.

How's today been Dan ?

I can relate. I'm single and have no life really. My alcoholism and depression/anxiety has left me too unstable to work (keep getting fired) and my friends and family are off living their lives without me involved. I spend 24/7 alone and have no purpose in life. I share you're misery

Maybe your purpose is to find him through your suffering. Maybe he sent you here to this forum. Maybe, as one of my favorite authors puts it "Some times you have to die a few times before you can really live." Maybe as long as there's a "maybe" there's some hope, my friend. Think about it :).