2Wheelterror

Well once again I start over,I'm on day 2 and feeling itchy, shaky and sweaty. Ugg somehow made it through work without a freak out. I'm all over the place, one minute I feel like crying, the next I want to smack someone in the face. Ahh the joys of detox, I don't think I have to many more of these left in me. This time has to stick, woke up yesterday after a 3 day binge and knew I had to stop. Had bruises all over me and no memory of what happened. So I'm back again, I'm tired of not knowing what I did, being constantly in debt and generally hating myself. There has got to be more to life than being drunk constantly, hoping this time i can beat this viscous beast.

saoutchik

Hey! Good to see you back fella

You can do it and you will do it

James90

One day at a time 2wheel, it's not a sprint, it's your own personal marathon, go at your own pace.

Hevyn

Hi 2Wheel. I'm sorry for your misery - but it will pass & you'll be free.
Glad to have you back with us - no one understands like your fellow alkies.

ZenLifter

Welcome. Sorry to hear what you're going through, but remember how bad it sucks, so the next time you think about drinking, you can "play the tape," as they say. Hang on, my friend

Arpeggioh

Glad you made it back here, to relative safety! I've been "out there" for months, even years at a time...and I always immediately feel better when I'm here posting and reading (and not drinking, obviously. Again.) They never shut the door on me here, and I'm eternally thankful for that!

Feel better soon,
Arp

2Wheelterror

Thanks everyone, I was feeling ashamed of myself and almost didn't post. This is the self loathing where i hate myself for a few days and then I end up with a drink in my hand before I know what happened. I have started a journal that I carry with me so I can see how crappy detox is. Deff gonna find a counselor, I got to many issues to take on by myself.

SoulShine8

I'm glad you posted 2Wheel and that you have some good plans in mind already.

Dee74

Welcome back 2wheelterror

entropy1964

Welcome back. I relate to how you're feeling. 20 days in from a pretty miserable place and life is much better. You can do this!

kittycat3

Hugs, I've been there too, just 36 days ago. Seems like ages now, although I know I have a long way to go, I never want to feel like I did those first few days again. Shame, regret, humiliation, defeat. You can do this if you want sobriety. It's worth the effort.

BronzeMist

I'm looking forward to my day 2, congratulations on the milestone. I'll post here again when I get past day 2. I'm glad this forum is here for us

Steely

Welcome back. Sick and tired of feeling sick and tired. It doesn't have to be that way. You're going to love it.

IanW

I know how you feel about being back and feeling ashamed. I am in the same boat and feel ashamed, but I need to carry on and try again.

Arpeggioh

There's a really good thread in the Newcomers section about Coming Back to SR after slipping or relapsing. Several of us have been down that road, myself probably more times than I'd care to admit. Posting here is my "first step" when I finally hit a new low of feeling defeated and helpless; glad to see all of you, and look forward to reading more from you. A heartfelt Welcome Back! This is where we need to be...Arp

Soberwolf

Welcome bk 2wheelterror

Mountainmanbob

Nice to see you here this morning.
You can do this thing sober today.
M-Bob