Razorblade66

Hello all! I'm very happy to be awake and not sick or feeling guilty on a Sunday afternoon! I went to a meeting and I think I found my home group!

My bf and I drink together and he has his own issues with drinking. He stays part time with me and part time with his parents. (Child custody thing)He pays half the rent for our apartment.

I didn't want to make a hasty decision so I asked him to stay at his parents for a while so o can work on my sobriety and figure things out. That was 5 hours ago... I haven't heard back.

I feel our relationship was built on heavy drinking, and although he says he's supportive of me being sober, I know if I relapse he will support that too.

I'm going to end it. I am not mad at him for being upset. I'll have to figure out things financially. I guess that is where "first things first" "easy does it" and "one day at a time" will fall into place.

I want to build my relationship with me. Find out who I am, how strong I can be, and what I even like to do for fun. I don't know who I am.

Just venting. Thanks for reading! 🙏🏽

BirdsAteMyFace

Congrats on a week!

Determined82

Hi Razor
Well done for being strong and for gifting yourself a fair chance of recovery by removing your trigger. I know all about what your going through. I am a recovering alcoholic and cocaine user. Me and my husband use together, in his trigger and he's mine (it's the worst thing as divorce is not an option). The difference is that if I quit he quits (and visa versa) we just wouldn't do it alone and we tend to drink at home. If he loves you he will respect your decision and be by your side trying to get sober also. Surely your relationship has got to mean more to him than having another drink! I would really sit down and have a heart to heart with him. Try and make him see sense and reason. Best of luck moving forward

Det

Everydaysabonus

I'm 54 days sober and married to an active alcoholic. It's not easy but it's ok, my recovery doesn't depend on his and yours does not depend on your boyfriend's. It sounds like you are pretty determined and I totally understand why you want to distance yourself and concentrate on you. Splitting up may be the best thing for you but it's not the only option, don't make any rash decisions in early recovery.

Anna

Good job on your first week sober!

I felt much like you do when I stopped drinking. I had to figure things out, especially who I was. Be kind to yourself.

thomas11

I wish more people would think that way. Good for you.

trachemys

That's as good of a start as you can make. Be you.

least

I think I would avoid making huge life changing decisions so early in recovery. I hope you find some peace of mind.

Flawed

I admire you putting your sobriety first, that is awesome!

pandblvr

Keep YOUR sobriety first.....go to any lengths for your sobriety....pray and ask for guidance......listen for the suggestion.....remember that feelings are just feelings, how you react to them is how they become tangible......and think about your true motives when making decisions.....

Congrats on your strength and your sobriety. It only gets better now.

Keep fighting<3