From Then to Now....
 

Not many years ago I actually woke in terror, emerging from a blackout in a hotel room having passed out at some point. Not sure how I'd made it back there. Scrambling to frantically prepare for a meeting. To my horror I discovered I'd defecated in a nightstand drawer, thinking it to be the toilet apparently.

That wasn't the first time.

In those days I was constantly in debt, constantly fearing financial ruin. I felt a fraud. I don't know how I held onto my career. In my wake I left two marriages.

Today I am conscious and clear in the head. I am happy, even on days when I have a bit of depression to contend with. Today I am free of debt and have a positive net worth. Today my debt to income ratio is incredibly low. Lenders beg me to let them loan me money. People respect me. I am free of guilt. I harbor no shame.

In two and a half years, everything has changed.

Because I really, honestly, finally, deeply chose sobriety.

Folks...... it really does work.

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Thanks FreeOwl, and good for you. That's the direction I hope I'm headed.

So you crapped in drawer? sorry, it made me laugh. I peed in the laundry basket once. Thought it was the toilet.

Thanks for the laughs this morning! I am literally LOL.
I can't say I have ever crapped in a drawer or peed in the laundry basket, but I did pee my pants in a Walgreens once half in the bag while waiting in line.........

uhm, did I just admit to that? ......

The ugly truths of alcoholism need to be shared....

A drawer is not the most shocking place I've used as a toilet when drunk.

Good lord, I'm so grateful to have those experiences behind me.

Sobriety and recovery are game changers; how wonderful life can become.

Thanks, FreeOwl.