I'm back. Need support.
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I'm back. Need support.
Hey guys. Not sure if anybody remembers me but I used to post. I started drinking again. I'm not drinking today. I've really screwed up my personal life and I need some friends and support. I don't want to drink ever again so I'm starting with today.
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Well for now my plan is to pick up the pieces and move forward. I've been on vacation from work and I'm really looking forward to going back tomorrow. I feel like I just screw up when I'm left to my own devices.
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Thank you for the kind words and support. I've made the mistake of making my sobriety trivial. I forgot that this is life and death. And now I've ruined another relationship. I can get over that, I've had to many times before. But I feel really sick right now and I'm worried about my health. Thanks for being there for me today.
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Originally Posted by Blowfish 
I feel like I just screw up when I'm left to my own devices.
In my own experience, it's made all the difference in the world.
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Originally Posted by Blowfish
I feel like I just screw up when I'm left to my own devices.
There will come a time when you can no longer get over a broken relationship so easily, and it will break your heart in the extreme. Perhaps you've already experienced this, but even if you have, fasten your seatbelt and get ready for a ride you could never have imagined.
There truly isn't some great secret about achieving sobriety. I needed a comprehensive and reasonable plan to make things work. Yet many people bridle at even the reading or the sound of the word 'work'. Most of us surrender more time and effort (not to mention money) when it comes to buying a car than we do with affairs of personal health and well-being. If "picking up the pieces and moving forward" were a reliable plan, none of us would be here. And then? You do the same thing that you need to do to get to Broadway: Practice, practice, practice.
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You're right. I need a real plan this time. For now posting here seems like a start. And I appreciate what you said. That particular relationship was toxic so I didn't really lose much there. I'm starting to feel anxious and my vision is somehow not right. Hanging in for now. Thanks for all the support guys.
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Welcome back blowfish, keep in mind alcoholism gets worse, never better. you mentioned it was really bad this time, it will be worse next time. Maybe its time to get really serious about it. Especially if your health is at risk. You must want to live a good sober life if you are here, correct?
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Originally Posted by Blowfish
You're right. I need a real plan this time.
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ery-plans.html
Don't wait - start now.
welcome back Blowfish
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Good to see you, Blowfish. I'm so glad you decided to come back & talk about what happened. This is the best place for encouragement & understanding. Glad to have you posting again - everything's going to get better.
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Originally Posted by Blowfish
Thanks guys. And you're right Thomas, it's no way to live. I just want the guilt, shame and sickness to be over with today.
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