Here I am again
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Join Date: May 2016
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Here I am again
Hi all,
I quit for a few months a couple of years ago then started drinking again. A lot has happened since then. A marriage breakdown, I was diagnosed with breast cancer. Now my days are filled with more drinking, I think the drinking caused my cancer. I just hate myself.
Couldn't remember my old password so had to set up a new account.
Thanks for listening.
SS
I quit for a few months a couple of years ago then started drinking again. A lot has happened since then. A marriage breakdown, I was diagnosed with breast cancer. Now my days are filled with more drinking, I think the drinking caused my cancer. I just hate myself.
Couldn't remember my old password so had to set up a new account.
Thanks for listening.
SS
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Join Date: May 2016
Location: US
Posts: 600
SS - I sympathize with you.
I, of course want to say don't hate yourself - but it's not my place to tell you how to feel. I can understand you feeling that way, though. This past year I've been found to have lesions on my kidney and liver and a small nodule in my stomach. All of this has to be checked again in a year. I was a mess going through testing and procedures and relieved that for now it isn't cancer. And what did I do after? I drank. Like you, I feel I did this to myself and I have negative feelings toward myself too. I have to stop before I do any more damage.
Best wishes to you.... I'm glad you posted.
I, of course want to say don't hate yourself - but it's not my place to tell you how to feel. I can understand you feeling that way, though. This past year I've been found to have lesions on my kidney and liver and a small nodule in my stomach. All of this has to be checked again in a year. I was a mess going through testing and procedures and relieved that for now it isn't cancer. And what did I do after? I drank. Like you, I feel I did this to myself and I have negative feelings toward myself too. I have to stop before I do any more damage.
Best wishes to you.... I'm glad you posted.
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Join Date: Mar 2016
Location: NC
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Welcome back and I am sorry that things are difficult right now.
If you have been diagnosed with cancer, it is more important now to stop drinking then ever before. Your body needs to be as strong as possible to handle the treatments, surgeries, and stress that comes with cancer. Mentally, you need to be clear, focused, and aware to make the correct decisions for yourself with doctors, and to really arm yourself with all the knowledge you need to make decisions and to tackle this disease.
I know getting news like that is a huge trigger for drinking, but please do WHATEVER it takes to reach recovery. Do you have a support system you can lean on right now? Have you thought about attending meetings or an outpatient rehab program? Counseling would be a huge asset right now, at least for me it is.
Please be honest with your doctors about EVERYTHING. This is not the time to tell half truths or withhold information from your doctors. They need to be completely informed in order to help you the best way possible.
I am so sorry you are going through this, I know this isn't easy but right now it truly can be life or death, and I know even if it is difficult that you choose life.
HUGS
Keep posting, keep reaching out, and never...ever give up on yourself. YOU ARE WORTH IT.
If you have been diagnosed with cancer, it is more important now to stop drinking then ever before. Your body needs to be as strong as possible to handle the treatments, surgeries, and stress that comes with cancer. Mentally, you need to be clear, focused, and aware to make the correct decisions for yourself with doctors, and to really arm yourself with all the knowledge you need to make decisions and to tackle this disease.
I know getting news like that is a huge trigger for drinking, but please do WHATEVER it takes to reach recovery. Do you have a support system you can lean on right now? Have you thought about attending meetings or an outpatient rehab program? Counseling would be a huge asset right now, at least for me it is.
Please be honest with your doctors about EVERYTHING. This is not the time to tell half truths or withhold information from your doctors. They need to be completely informed in order to help you the best way possible.
I am so sorry you are going through this, I know this isn't easy but right now it truly can be life or death, and I know even if it is difficult that you choose life.
HUGS
Keep posting, keep reaching out, and never...ever give up on yourself. YOU ARE WORTH IT.
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Welcome bk SunsetStar I hope you decide to stick with us I know having a plan & regular interaction with people who you can reach out to because we get it makes all the difference
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Join Date: Apr 2016
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Hi sunsetstar 
I'm so sorry to hear your going through a terrible time.
This is one of the best places you can be for support and strength to stop hating yourself.
Big hugs we are all here for you
x
I'm so sorry to hear your going through a terrible time.
This is one of the best places you can be for support and strength to stop hating yourself.
Big hugs we are all here for you
x
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Welcome back, sunsetstar 
I had breast cancer, too, and I wondered if I had done something to cause my cancer. My doctor was very clear with me that I did not cause my cancer and I chose to believe her.
I hope you stay here with us at SR
I had breast cancer, too, and I wondered if I had done something to cause my cancer. My doctor was very clear with me that I did not cause my cancer and I chose to believe her.
I hope you stay here with us at SR
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Join Date: May 2016
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Thank you everyone. 2nd hand rose is it ok if I PM you? I definitely know I need to stop drinking as its life or death. I'm even going through chemo at the moment and drink as soon as I feel ok dde14 I don't really have a support system but I'm going to try counselling and use this group. Last time I stopped drinking using this forum, it really helped.
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