Water441

My day one was supposed to be yesterday but the withdrawal symptoms had me back drinking. Not that it's any victory but I drank very small amounts from time to time throughout the day to get through it. Have managed to choose not to drink for the last 8 hours and have thrown it all out. Eating and sleeping and cleaning. Hoping the withdrawal isn't too bad today but will go to withdrawal management clinic if it is.

Getting an assessment for an outpatient program.

I've done some terrible things in the last few months and my body and brain are suffering.

Hopeful that doing an outpatient program helps me develop the tools to keep choosing not to drink.

Thanks for all the information and support.

Easy2slip

Hang in there !
Getting through the first days is hard... But worth it!
I'm sitting on day 8.
You can do this.

Soberwolf

You can do this water keep on interacting with us it really pays off

Gottalife

Interesting choice of words - choosing not to drink. I did that several times each week, but was drunk within a few hours, the reasons for my "choice" having faded from my mind for some reason.

I had lost the power of choice in alcohol, which is what makes me alcoholic. I never got it back. Instead, through a very effective program, the problem was removed and the idea of choice became redundant.

Today I have about as much choice to drink as I used to have not to drink, none at all. If I thought I had choce, I'd only have to exercise it the wrong way once, to find out that the idea of choice really is an illusion for me.

Of course there are millions of people who choose not to drink, and do it successfully. I am just not like them.

Delizadee

Hang in there, you can do it!
Do you have a recovery plan?
Beyond what you've already said you're planning, having a good plan can help you to stay the sobriety path no matter what happens.
Sending you strength and hope.

Anna

I'm glad you are working on Day 1.

We do understand how hard this is.

Dee74

How are you doing now water?

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