MikeM

Currently I'm in a difficult place a need some time to get everything back on track.

Thanks for the kind PM's. I will respond to them when I'm back.

I didn't want to just stay away with people wondering how I'm doing.

It's hard, I need to work on my situation. But I have help.

It's uncertain how long I need, but I'll be back. It may be tomorrow, it may be next week. But know that I have help from family and my doctor. So I'm in good hands.

Thank you all for putting up with me. I know I'm not the easiest member to deal with and it touches me that you guys and gals are still ok with me and want to help.

Ok, time to get to working on my situation.

teatreeoil007

No prob, man... Do what ya gotta do...see ya later & take care..

2muchpain

Take care of yourself Mike. John

waterlogged

You can do this. xx

dwtbd

You Can Do This
Rootin for ya !

JD

Hang in there Mike and take care of yourself.

Hawkeye13

Maybe you should re-think inpatient and get some real tools to work on this.
Good luck

Bunny211

Hang in there Mike!!

tomsteve

youve got a lot of changes to make, mike, but its not impossible. ive met many,many people in recovery with mental and emotional disorders who are sober and many of them have been sober a long time.
if they(and we) can do it, so can you.

entropy1964

Mike I'm glad you're ok. And very glad you have help.

It has been my experience that most addicts have behaved in ways that they aren't proud of. And having dual diagnosis makes that even more challenging. Love yourself and get the help you need!

Delilah1

I'm glad you have the support of your family, and that you are working with your doctor.

SoberLife90

Hope to see you soon!

Zufrieden

I look forward to your return Mike.
Jonathan

ccam1973

Hang in there Mike. We will be here when you are ready.

Forte

Get back on the bike Mike. You have proved that you can stay sober.

Good luck

firstymer

We'll be here. Hope to see you back soon.

MikeM

I am touched by the sweet responses.

Right now, I'm at home. Drinking. They actually allowed me to. I was so stressed that my vitals and everything got very high. And it was drinking to calm me down, or meds, which are addictive as well. I don't want a new addiction.

It is the last day they allowed it though, and I offered the idea to have me admitted to the psych ward subsequently. Which is tomorrow. I don't feel right. I am limited in how much I can drink (my brother is actually here, tracking it. Quite the adult I am, right?).

So I will have these few beers to calm me down and I'll be admitted tomorrow morning. To begin with a 24 hours observation period and some talks with the professionals. I've been there before. At least the food is good.

So tomorrow must be my last day 1.

My bro is telling me to let go of writing, he sees me getting stressed. So I will.

One thing though. I have been known to stretch 24 hour observations to a couple of days if I feel I need more time. So that might happen.

My God. I wish I'd never drank alcohol ever.

Ok, bro telling me to stop. He sees the intensity rising again.

Talk to you all later.

TheFuddsofElmer

I just joined this community but I still love you and want to support you man. Good luck.

MikeM

Out of beer and getting my mind in the right direction. I love Eminem, as some of you know. This song is getting me through this evening. If you're not into rap, just listen to the chorus.

As usual, the clean version. But it's a serious song without much profanity to begin with:

Jillian2563

I hope everything goes well for you mike. I'm glad your brother is there to help you.