TNTStill

That place where you are scared to live life without drinking but knowing that drinking will ultimately ruin your life (and possibly end it) is a tough place to be.

I remember how that felt and that is one of the many things that keeps me sober a day at a time. A program of recovery, helping hands from all around and higher power have been the things maintaining my sobriety. I do my part but it is only successful due to these avenues of assistance.

No one should have to live life in a such a manner. The claws of addiction are sharp and merciless and will tear you up inside and out.

Prayers to anyone that is torn in between quitting or continuing drinking due to fear. Its hard and scary in the beginning.

Everyone deserves happiness and peace.

Take care.

Dee74

Thanks for the post TNTstill - hows things with you?

Lockie

I remember years before I sought any recovery I would wake or jolt up and just know in my soul for a split second "oh my I'm an alcoholic" from a knowing voice. This is before I even opened that door to recovery. My inner psyche knew before I did if that makes sense. Later when I was drinking AND seeking sobriety ... I guess the term of a head full of aa and a belly full of booze comes to mind Awful way to exist. I so get what your saying

Soberwolf

Thank you

nova84

I am so relieved that I no longer have to cope with that daily internal battle and dialogue of knowing alcohol was an issue yet still ending every day having had alcohol...once I made the decision to thrive in sobriety it felt as though a huge weight had been lifted x

TNTStill

10 months as of the 17th. Doing well. Thanks for asking.