noneever

Earlier this week (and for the past 6-12 months, more) I've struggled with why I've been able able to moderate on some occasions- have one or two drinks and leave it that, and not others. I've used the memory of those comparatively few occasions of moderating to justify drinking again.

But I've just realised that without exception, those times I moderated were always the day or following day after binging the night before. So I was hungover or still recovering from a hangover and physically unable to drink more than one or two. I wasn't moderating at all, my poor body was already so toxin ridden that it was crying out no more.

Moderation was an illusion. It was simply that my body refused to accept any more.

This is a big insight for me.

Dee74

I think you've got it noneever - great stuff

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IronPhoenix

"Moderation was an illusion."

Yep - took me a while to realize the same thing and come to terms that I am not wired to moderate. I just can't and if I try I know I would slip back into old habits - so I quite.