6 months tomorrow
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6 months tomorrow
To all of you struggling, wishing you could be sober yet scared to stop drinking -- that was me 9 months ago. I couldn't go a DAY without drinking, let alone 6 months. When I used to read, "if I can do it, anyone can do it," I'd curse under my breath. (Ok, sometimes I'd curse openly and loudly...) I didn't believe in myself, didn't think I could ever be sober. Certainly not for months on end. I thought those people must have some secret reservoir of willpower I didn't possess. Well, I've discovered that there is no magic. And I didn't need to arm myself with the willpower police after all. Being sober is its own reward. Feeling good, waking up and being able to look at myself in the mirror, not sending drunken, nasty emails -- all of that keeps me from wanting to drink. Sure, sometimes I'd love a glass (or two or ten) of wine...but then I "play the tape." Would a glass be enough? Would 2 glasses? I guess what I'm saying is that the rewards of being sober are enough. I was very lucky in that I went to inpatient rehab, and I realize not everyone has that opportunity. But staying sober is nowhere near as difficult as I thought it would be. So if you're still reading this, and there's a teeny part of you that thinks maybe, just maybe, you can do this, I'm here to tell you that you CAN. And life really is better on the other side. Blessings.
Keep going, it gets better. 
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