Finding some peace
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Finding some peace
It's been so hard. I'd convince myself that tomorrow I'd start fresh, then tomorrow turned into days, weeks, months then years.
It's still so hard, but with sobriety under my belt it's harder now not to know and remember the feelings of life that soberness brings (I wish I had better words). If I'm tempted or have slipped, it's hard now not to know or remember that.
I can still get anxious and worry about damage I might have done, it can still get me caught up in panic attacks. It sucks, and I don't know if others are the same. I am getting better at that way of thinking about things though.
Always good seeing new and especially the old names here. For me, this has been so hard like I keep saying, but I'm finally getting there and sticking with what works for me.
It's still so hard, but with sobriety under my belt it's harder now not to know and remember the feelings of life that soberness brings (I wish I had better words). If I'm tempted or have slipped, it's hard now not to know or remember that.
I can still get anxious and worry about damage I might have done, it can still get me caught up in panic attacks. It sucks, and I don't know if others are the same. I am getting better at that way of thinking about things though.
Always good seeing new and especially the old names here. For me, this has been so hard like I keep saying, but I'm finally getting there and sticking with what works for me.
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I accepted and sought help on finding ways to be more flexible in my thinking, where as I could otherwise quickly and more easily give into drinking compulsions. I went about with a doctor ways to stop with short term medical help, and so lessen my fear (and put it into perspective) about would happen when I stop. I allowed myself to feel sobriety with even a short term (one day even) commitment to see how it stacked up vs. drinking. I instead looked at that my feeling anxious and maybe uncomfortable when stopping is the body slowly getting itself back to normal and part of the healing process.
Above all I started managing anxiety, better. It's a hell of a thing, but I forced myself to look back on times when I was managing it really well, and that was definetly without alcohol and binging.
Above all I started managing anxiety, better. It's a hell of a thing, but I forced myself to look back on times when I was managing it really well, and that was definetly without alcohol and binging.
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