WalkingOnAir

So, I swore off the hard stuff this weekend. But I moved on to only 3.2% beer. I keep telling myself I'm doing this to safely taper off...but we all know it's not the case. It may only be 3.2%, but I'm chugging them like water. Luckily I only had 3 of them left today. I just feel so bad that I know I'm trying to get a buzz, but also scared of those withdrawl stories of seizures. I was doing about 750ml a day until this weekend. I'm scared to quit cold turkey, but also feel wrong for chugging this beer instead of sipping 1 or 2 slowly (or having any, period). I suck today, and I'm sorry.

least

I hope you can stop drinking and get sober for good. It's worth it.

Delizadee

You don't need to apologize to anyone but yourself. You have to really want to be sober to be able to get yourself there. Because no one anywhere is going to keep you sober or make you drink but yourself.

Have you thought about talking to a Dr? Your fears are not unfounded so it always advisable to seek your doctor's advice.

We are here to support you in this.

Dee74

If you're worried about withdrawal see a Dr - it really is the safest way

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Ghostlight1

I've done that. A twelve of 3.2 was like drinking water, but when in desperation and they aren't selling the hard stuff on Sunday it worked a little
My little mind drooling for Monday morning when I could get properly drunk.

You're drinking a large volume of booze. I, as the others have said, would get a professional opinion on how to safely stop.

I was scared to stop, too. It took me a very long time to finally do it.
You're not alone.

Hawkeye13

It is scary--but you will feel so much better about yourself
and your life when you do.

What about checking with your doctor and getting some help to quit
this week?

Delilah1

I agree with Dee, you can do this!!

Soberwolf

have you got a plan ?

WalkingOnAir

I don't feel like I was fair to everyone on here trying to stop, by having that beer. Does that make sense? If you all can't have any, why should I be able to? I feel like I was making excuses just to have a beer...half of it is that - the other half was real worry of withdrawal....and yes, the "I'm sorry" was to myself. I just have to type it to feel it.

I do have health insurance, but I pay such a low monthly fee. So low, my deductible payment at my last visit was $300. For now, I have to do this on my own.

My only plan right now is to stay at home for the next few days and avoid traveling anywhere. Luckily, I am a songwriter - so I work (write, mix, record) from home and send my work on the internet. Lately, anytime I have to go to the grocery store, or to get something to eat, it was an excuse to buy some more booze. I have enough food at home to get me through the week...it's more just gonna be a fight to not leave the house. Like I've said in a previous post, I'm an introvert and very much happy alone. I know I can do this, but I need you guys' help for sure.