confused2016

I hate to admit this, but I actually have contemplated this. Then where would our kids be, the only thing that kept me from it. Or pay back, let ah see what it feels like to not have enough money or me be here, but not be here, texting or calling guys to get what I need. Yesterday ah went 2 times and bought product and the famous line, this is it I'm going to detox this weekend, I don't want to be like this. Then today already trying to find something, while we are getting ready to go on a date. What a whirlwind this addiction is?

confused2016

Well no date, hurting to bad and can't go without meds. All dressed up and no where to go.

Jsbodhi

Hello xoxo
Maybe just stay in?! Have a nice dinner or a DIY spa night?!

FLCamper

Can you give a few more details? i'm not clear on the first post.

confused2016

Just have had thoughts in the recent past about joining addict and make him feel the way I feel. I can't do that thou because of our kids. Somebody has to be responsible.

confused2016

It's not me, I struggle thru my pain. Ah said he was hurting to bad to keep our date. But yet he is out trying to get something now, because of course a call came in for a chance of some free ones.

Soberwolf

Being with your kids at home safe will help using never does stay close to us tonight it will help

confused2016

Thanks! He just got home and I have a suit case ready for him to pack and leave and he won't. Says he's not going anywhere. I have no where to go. Says he didn't get anything so he's not leaving (nothing was available ). Gone for over 2 hrs but hurt to bad to go out with me.

Dee74

I think definitely you need to think of yourself and your kids.
Joining your husband in addiction would be absolute madness.

D

confused2016

I'm not. Just a stupid thought, I'm sure he wouldn't feel anything that I have felt.

confused2016

Well ah fixed us a nice dinner tonight, after refusing to leave. 1 st time he's done that in forever. I know he didn't get anything today (not from lack of trying). It was nice to have him cook meal for me for a change. Almost felt like old times!

Bekindalways

Hey there Confused, this sounds like a super tough relationship to be in. I hope you are doing what you can to take care of yourself.

Keep posting and read everything you can about addiction and being in a relationship with an addict.

Dee74

I figured you weren't serious - and no he probably wouldn't feel anything that you've felt, or wanted him to feel.

If you want him to leave I hope you can make that happen - one cooked meal doesn't really change the situation.

D