Is this where I introduce myself?
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Join Date: Mar 2016
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Is this where I introduce myself?
Hi, I am 27 and I think 3 days sober from alcohol.
I have been drinking heavily for 5 years after my deployment. This last year drinking stopped being a fun way to unwind. I don't laugh when I drink anymore and my brain doesn't function well anymore. I can feel how stupid I've become. There is no mental clarity here and not even caffeine can help anymore. I wake up extremely tired every morning even on nights when I don't drink now. I count calories and I was getting 75-80% of daily goal calories from alcohol, my minimum was 880kcal beer nightly. I went through 3 months of panic attacks. I would have a minimum of 4 attacks daily. The good ones where you pace around pulling your hair and carry your phone with 911 predialed waiting for your heart to stop. I was getting burning nerve pain when I would try to sleep. My doctor had no idea what any of that came from.
Anyways I noticed that my schedule is go to work, come home, drink, fall asleep and repeat. My days off are drinking and playing on the Internet.
Now my job is pretty bad for a 27 year old and I've always held myself to a higher standard than who I am today, so I am changing it.
For 3 months I counted calories and cut alcohol consumption to about 5 days a week and I am down 20lbs. I think I am finally ready to just cut it for good.
Sorry if I'm rambling. My brain is jello right now and it feels like the nerves in my arms are being pulled like a bow string.
I have been drinking heavily for 5 years after my deployment. This last year drinking stopped being a fun way to unwind. I don't laugh when I drink anymore and my brain doesn't function well anymore. I can feel how stupid I've become. There is no mental clarity here and not even caffeine can help anymore. I wake up extremely tired every morning even on nights when I don't drink now. I count calories and I was getting 75-80% of daily goal calories from alcohol, my minimum was 880kcal beer nightly. I went through 3 months of panic attacks. I would have a minimum of 4 attacks daily. The good ones where you pace around pulling your hair and carry your phone with 911 predialed waiting for your heart to stop. I was getting burning nerve pain when I would try to sleep. My doctor had no idea what any of that came from.
Anyways I noticed that my schedule is go to work, come home, drink, fall asleep and repeat. My days off are drinking and playing on the Internet.
Now my job is pretty bad for a 27 year old and I've always held myself to a higher standard than who I am today, so I am changing it.
For 3 months I counted calories and cut alcohol consumption to about 5 days a week and I am down 20lbs. I think I am finally ready to just cut it for good.
Sorry if I'm rambling. My brain is jello right now and it feels like the nerves in my arms are being pulled like a bow string.
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Welcome to SR, CheckMyself, and congratulations on choosing a better way of life in recovery.
I hope you'll join us in the Class of March 2016 thread on this same forum. It's a great way to learn from and help others who are also newly sober.
I hope you'll join us in the Class of March 2016 thread on this same forum. It's a great way to learn from and help others who are also newly sober.
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Welcome, CheckMyself! Three days sober is awesome--no need to drink again!
I hope you make good use of SoberRecovery for inspiration and information. Here's a couple good threads to join:
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ml#post5860170
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ml#post5859246
I hope you make good use of SoberRecovery for inspiration and information. Here's a couple good threads to join:
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ml#post5860170
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ml#post5859246
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Thanks for the warm welcome, everyone.
I can safely say that I've done more in the last 3 days than I have in the last 3 years. I'm not exaggerating in the slightest either, unfortunately.
I'm trying to get a job as a web developer and I know being hungover and late isn't going to get me very far. I have been satiating the boredom by filling up my portfolio with scripts instead of drinking and playing watching movies.
Hopefully my brain rewires itself to what it once was. Thanks again!
I'll check it out, thank you!
I can safely say that I've done more in the last 3 days than I have in the last 3 years. I'm not exaggerating in the slightest either, unfortunately.
I'm trying to get a job as a web developer and I know being hungover and late isn't going to get me very far. I have been satiating the boredom by filling up my portfolio with scripts instead of drinking and playing watching movies.
Hopefully my brain rewires itself to what it once was. Thanks again!
Originally Posted by CaseyW 
Welcome to SR, CheckMyself, and congratulations on choosing a better way of life in recovery.
I hope you'll join us in the Class of March 2016 thread on this same forum. It's a great way to learn from and help others who are also newly sober.
I hope you'll join us in the Class of March 2016 thread on this same forum. It's a great way to learn from and help others who are also newly sober.
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I think you'll come to realize that it is much easier to just quit, than to try and moderate or control your consumption. By your OP, it sounds like alcohol is doing you no favors. Most of us have been there and its no way to live. Wish you the very best. Keep posting.
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Hi CheckMyself....
Welcome. I'm new as well. I'm hopeful that you'll find strong support and good advice.
Dealing with a job situation and sobriety is challenging as I'm dealing with the same thing. When I overthink my situation, the depression is crippling. Gotta deal with things one day at a time. Good luck....
Welcome. I'm new as well. I'm hopeful that you'll find strong support and good advice.
Dealing with a job situation and sobriety is challenging as I'm dealing with the same thing. When I overthink my situation, the depression is crippling. Gotta deal with things one day at a time. Good luck....
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