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Old 03-14-2016, 12:36 PM
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Certain aspects of life really doesn't help sometimes; I am usually so strong in not caring what people think but in my situation there seems to be people who for some reason think about how your life is funded, who make assumptions about you when you would never give their lifestyle a second thought!

I have had people come to me and say "ooh i thought you were a princess and daddy took care of everything but you're not like that at all"

You're exactly right but what on EARTH makes you think it's your business anyway?!
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Old 03-14-2016, 01:11 PM
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Old 03-14-2016, 01:19 PM
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Thank you soberwolf; I know I shouldn't. It's just hard sometimes. I don't know why people would judge the way I live when I don't do that to them. I just wish they would leave well alone like I do. Anyway i hope you are well?!
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Old 03-15-2016, 04:50 AM
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Old 03-15-2016, 07:33 AM
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Old 03-15-2016, 08:11 AM
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I have had people come to me and say "ooh i thought you were a princess and daddy took care of everything but you're not like that at all" (
I hope you don't waste a single breath responding to the person who said that to you. I had to focus ALL my energy on being positive in my recovery. I had some toxic people like that in my life and I got rid of them completely and forever early on in recovery.
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Old 03-15-2016, 09:41 AM
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Everything okay Mrskw?
Hi OldTomato, I had a rough night last night but I'm okay now. Thank you so much for asking I really appreciate it. How are you today?
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Old 03-15-2016, 09:45 AM
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I hope you don't waste a single breath responding to the person who said that to you. I had to focus ALL my energy on being positive in my recovery. I had some toxic people like that in my life and I got rid of them completely and forever early on in recovery.

Thanks Anna; luckily I don't have to have anything to do with that particular person. I am working on shedding negative energy in my life. I'm so glad you got rid of the toxic people in your life; its amazing how draining those people can be. how are you today?
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Old 03-15-2016, 09:47 AM
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Glad to hear you're feeling better.

I'm doing good, my moods are up and down but I'm buying ice cream to make myself feel better instead of alcohol.
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Hope you're having a great day, Mrskw!
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Old 03-15-2016, 09:48 AM
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Glad to hear you're feeling better.

I'm doing good, my moods are up and down but I'm buying ice cream to make myself feel better instead of alcohol.
Sounds like an amazing idea! I love ice cream; what flavour are you getting?
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Old 03-15-2016, 02:22 PM
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Hope you're having a great day, Mrskw!
Thank you Bobbieka! I hope you are too!
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I got the chocolate brownie ice cream this time around.
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Old 03-15-2016, 02:37 PM
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I am really, really unkind to myself! I have been for years in so many different ways. Hated myself when there is absolutely no reason why I should. It stops today; I'm going to be a whole lot nicer to myself and stop giving myself such a hard time.

Wow, the years of torture I've put myself through. Worrying about my weight (which is in normal range), worrying about my appearance, my personality, all such wasted time when I could do and be so much more. This addiction and low self esteem isn't what I want for myself so I'm going to change it. I can't waste any more of my beautiful life!

Got to the gym despite feeling awful and so happy that I did. I love the gym so much, my little heaven. I want to build more muscle so I need to take better care of my body! Starting tomorrow seeing as I just devoured some Ben & Jerrys. I did treat myself to 24 hours alcohol free though.

Time to start being nice to myself.
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Old 03-15-2016, 02:38 PM
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I got the chocolate brownie ice cream this time around.
Ooh yum! You got me thinking about ice cream too so I got cookie dough!
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Old 03-15-2016, 02:40 PM
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Staying sober is the priority right now Mrskw, you're allowed to treat yourself.
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Thank you OldTomato; it is absolutely top priority. Hope you enjoyed your ice cream!
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Old 03-16-2016, 02:32 AM
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It's been a lovely day already and its only 9:30am. Got woken up by one off my cats cuddling up and kissing my nose. Kissed my husband goodbye before he left for work.

I nearly chastised myself for something really unimportant (couldn't remember where I put my water bottle) but I stopped myself. Being easier on myself is going to take a lot of self awareness as it seems reflex to put myself down.

Made a gorgeous breakfast of pan fried sea bass with lemon, garlic, coriander, pepper, ginger and chilli, with an egg and steamed spinach. Savoured a beautifully strong cup of coffee. Took my vitamins; which I can't wait to properly enjoy the effects of.

Two main plans for today is to spend some serious time in the gym; weights then cardio, and do at least an hour of studying in the afternoon. I have an exam on 27th which I feel really worried about; but as long as I stop procrastinating and get my head in the books I think I will be okay.

Thank you for reading; have a great morning/afternoon/night.
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