28 days ago...
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28 days ago...
28 days ago I woke up disgusted with myself... Yet again. I'd mentally told myself "today is day 1 and tomorrow WILL be day 2" endless times.. Only to cave to the urges once again and decide that I'd try again "tomorrow".
28 days ago I messaged a friend who is an AA alum and told her I needed to make a change... And while I waited for her to reply I logged in here for the first time in over a year. I announced my "day one... Again" and committed to posting here for 28 days. It was implied but I didn't even actually technically commit to not drinking for that time... It was overwhelming to think of that... But the though of not drinking that day seemed less so.
28 days ago when I started day one I don't think that deep down I believed I would be here at 28 days sober. It took several days for me to believe that I would be and now I realize that I have a lifetime to continue to grow and learn about my triggers and urges and to develop alternate reactions than to grab a drink. I've reached out to two other sober individuals whom I know as acquaintances and admitted to them where I am with things. In due time I'll share with my close friends and in the interim I'll develop a plan for social situations that arise and I can simple say, "I don't drink" should the topic arise.
28 days has been an eternity and yet went by very quickly.
So though I committed to post for each of these 28 days, do you mind if I stick around a while longer? 😉
And today I will not drink.
28 days ago I messaged a friend who is an AA alum and told her I needed to make a change... And while I waited for her to reply I logged in here for the first time in over a year. I announced my "day one... Again" and committed to posting here for 28 days. It was implied but I didn't even actually technically commit to not drinking for that time... It was overwhelming to think of that... But the though of not drinking that day seemed less so.
28 days ago when I started day one I don't think that deep down I believed I would be here at 28 days sober. It took several days for me to believe that I would be and now I realize that I have a lifetime to continue to grow and learn about my triggers and urges and to develop alternate reactions than to grab a drink. I've reached out to two other sober individuals whom I know as acquaintances and admitted to them where I am with things. In due time I'll share with my close friends and in the interim I'll develop a plan for social situations that arise and I can simple say, "I don't drink" should the topic arise.
28 days has been an eternity and yet went by very quickly.
So though I committed to post for each of these 28 days, do you mind if I stick around a while longer? 😉
And today I will not drink.
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Originally Posted by thomas11 
HI ICanDoBetter, I hope you stick around. I find this place very helpful regardless of one's situation. Maybe your just "ready". Wouldn't that be great?
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