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Join Date: Mar 2016
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New to recovery
Hello, I am 48 years old and have had an opiate addiction for 5 years. I am now in recovery and thought I was doing so well until my husband of 30 years left me. I am having an extremely hard time with this especially now that I am forced to feel the emotions that I always pushed down with pills before. I am on such a roller-coaster right now and almost feel "bi-polar". As I said, I am very new to recovery and I know without a doubt that if I slip I will end up dead because I can't go through getting clean again. I am sure that many of you have dealt with many scary situations after recovery and am hoping to get some advice on staying clean while going through a life changing event. I thank you all in advance for any help.
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Join Date: Aug 2007
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Welcome Jennifers - I'm happy you found us.
Alcohol was always my 'go to' for coping. If we're honest, we have to admit it does nothing to actually help us. We just get numb. A temporary dulling of the senses - then we pay for it with anxiety and regret. I hope you'll stay with us and post often. It helps to share what you're going through with people who understand.
Alcohol was always my 'go to' for coping. If we're honest, we have to admit it does nothing to actually help us. We just get numb. A temporary dulling of the senses - then we pay for it with anxiety and regret. I hope you'll stay with us and post often. It helps to share what you're going through with people who understand.
I hope you can benefit from the awesome support here. 
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Join Date: Aug 2003
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Jennifer, I'm sorry about your marriage breaking up and I am sure it's a very stressful time for you. I did go through a very difficult situation when I was in early recovery - my 19 yr old daughter was stalked by a stranger for a period of about 6 months and her life was in danger. What gave me strength was knowing that if I could get through this, everything else would be easy. And, I did get through it and it did give me a confidence that I hadn't had. You can and will get through this and you will find your way and you will be better and stronger.
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Join Date: Dec 2013
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Glad you are here Jennifer....you will find much support & encouragement here & know that you are not alone in this! Be kind to yourself, especially in these early days, rest, eat healthy, drink lots of water & take it easy on yourself.
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Thank you all so much. I have always been a pretty private person but have found through sharing with other addicts helps so much to get through each minute sober. I am having such a hard time now with the shame and guilt that comes with this terrible disease and I am so thankful I found you guys. I am quite positive I will be bugging you guys very often. Recovery from this is the hardest thing I have ever done and I am trying very hard to stay clean during this ordeal. I really appreciate you having such kind hearts to uplift a complete stranger!
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