the worst thought
Member
Thread Starter
Join Date: Dec 2015
Posts: 197
the worst thought
I used to think that being home late at night and being responsible was "boring" - I wasn't living life unless I was out on the town, bar hopping, and staying out late. Since I joined SR, I have had wonderful nights relaxing, drawing, thinking, reading, seeing all the movies I can find and waking up without feeling like hell. What exactly was I doing "living life"? Wasting $, lying, being a narcissist, smoking, making stupid guarantees I couldn't fulfill, and getting into dangerous and embarrassing (the next morning) sexual encounters. I'll take my "boring" life any day over going back to that mess. I never would have gotten to this point without the SR community and the wisdom of all of you who have gotten sober. God bless you, and I wish all the other people feeling as lost as I do/did find SR
Wow thats exactly what im doing tonight! Relaxing, reading, and cleaning the house. I agree, I am over going bar hopping. Its not teaching me anything. I just have to remind myself of that sometimes. Thanks for sharing!
I used to think that being home late at night and being responsible was "boring" - I wasn't living life unless I was out on the town, bar hopping, and staying out late. Since I joined SR, I have had wonderful nights relaxing, drawing, thinking, reading, seeing all the movies I can find and waking up without feeling like hell. What exactly was I doing "living life"? Wasting $, lying, being a narcissist, smoking, making stupid guarantees I couldn't fulfill, and getting into dangerous and embarrassing (the next morning) sexual encounters. I'll take my "boring" life any day over going back to that mess. I never would have gotten to this point without the SR community and the wisdom of all of you who have gotten sober. God bless you, and I wish all the other people feeling as lost as I do/did find SR
Me too! What's actually boring is repeatedly getting so drunk that you make no sense to anyone while at the same time thinking you are the wittiest, funniest person on earth. Then falling over. Then waking up the next morning with booze breath, a jackhammer going off in your head, a retching stomach, the drunk shakes and an inability to move from bed the entire day.
I'm glad I'm done with that
I'm glad I'm done with that
Love that! I will keep that in my mind as I continue this journey. It's gets lonely sometimes being home but I realize that drinking the feelings away was just a fantasy. The lonely was always here, just masked in wine. Now I can enjoy my evenings and know I will have no regrets tomorrow.
Love that! I will keep that in my mind as I continue this journey. It's gets lonely sometimes being home but I realize that drinking the feelings away was just a fantasy. The lonely was always here, just masked in wine. Now I can enjoy my evenings and know I will have no regrets tomorrow.
Im with you!!
I was in bed at 9 last night.
I was up at 5am today.
Ive walked my dogs and cuddled my kids and hugged my Lady and gotten some time to myself to reflect on gratitude and read a few chapters and i feel good and happy and content.
Boring is just fine with me.
I was in bed at 9 last night.
I was up at 5am today.
Ive walked my dogs and cuddled my kids and hugged my Lady and gotten some time to myself to reflect on gratitude and read a few chapters and i feel good and happy and content.
Boring is just fine with me.
I went outside early this morning to get the Sunday paper....I looked across the lake at the beautiful sunrise and I though to myself "Wow...that looks AMAZING...if I was hungover or had my first morning drink to avoid the hangover...I would have NEVER saw such a beautiful Gift from God..".I burst out in tears thinking of ALL the gifts that I could not receive because of alcohol. And how Jesus forgives me."
That might sound deep but, I really have been missing out on the joy of being fully human and fully alive. Blessings, Everyone! ♡CR
That might sound deep but, I really have been missing out on the joy of being fully human and fully alive. Blessings, Everyone! ♡CR
I went outside early this morning to get the Sunday paper....I looked across the lake at the beautiful sunrise and I though to myself "Wow...that looks AMAZING...if I was hungover or had my first morning drink to avoid the hangover...I would have NEVER saw such a beautiful Gift from God..".I burst out in tears thinking of ALL the gifts that I could not receive because of alcohol. And how Jesus forgives me."
That might sound deep but, I really have been missing out on the joy of being fully human and fully alive. Blessings, Everyone! ♡CR
That might sound deep but, I really have been missing out on the joy of being fully human and fully alive. Blessings, Everyone! ♡CR
Currently Active Users Viewing this Thread: 1 (0 members and 1 guests)