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Old 02-27-2016, 09:10 PM
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the worst thought

I used to think that being home late at night and being responsible was "boring" - I wasn't living life unless I was out on the town, bar hopping, and staying out late. Since I joined SR, I have had wonderful nights relaxing, drawing, thinking, reading, seeing all the movies I can find and waking up without feeling like hell. What exactly was I doing "living life"? Wasting $, lying, being a narcissist, smoking, making stupid guarantees I couldn't fulfill, and getting into dangerous and embarrassing (the next morning) sexual encounters. I'll take my "boring" life any day over going back to that mess. I never would have gotten to this point without the SR community and the wisdom of all of you who have gotten sober. God bless you, and I wish all the other people feeling as lost as I do/did find SR
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I could've written this myself word for word xoxo
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Old 02-27-2016, 09:24 PM
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Wow thats exactly what im doing tonight! Relaxing, reading, and cleaning the house. I agree, I am over going bar hopping. Its not teaching me anything. I just have to remind myself of that sometimes. Thanks for sharing!
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Originally Posted by lovetolisten View Post
I used to think that being home late at night and being responsible was "boring" - I wasn't living life unless I was out on the town, bar hopping, and staying out late. Since I joined SR, I have had wonderful nights relaxing, drawing, thinking, reading, seeing all the movies I can find and waking up without feeling like hell. What exactly was I doing "living life"? Wasting $, lying, being a narcissist, smoking, making stupid guarantees I couldn't fulfill, and getting into dangerous and embarrassing (the next morning) sexual encounters. I'll take my "boring" life any day over going back to that mess. I never would have gotten to this point without the SR community and the wisdom of all of you who have gotten sober. God bless you, and I wish all the other people feeling as lost as I do/did find SR
You sum that old roller coaster ride up really well. Just not worth all the time and bother. Keep it up!
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Old 02-27-2016, 10:59 PM
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I could've written this myself word for word xoxo
And me.
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Old 02-27-2016, 11:06 PM
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Pretty much agree. Also what the hell is so exciting and adventurous about spending a hundred dollars for half a night spent in a dingy room with cigarettes, booze, and the same ole people and conversations.
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Nice ETL....I like my quiet nights at home too
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Old 02-27-2016, 11:26 PM
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I could've written this myself word for word xoxo
Same here.
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Old 02-28-2016, 01:50 AM
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Me too! What's actually boring is repeatedly getting so drunk that you make no sense to anyone while at the same time thinking you are the wittiest, funniest person on earth. Then falling over. Then waking up the next morning with booze breath, a jackhammer going off in your head, a retching stomach, the drunk shakes and an inability to move from bed the entire day.
I'm glad I'm done with that
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Excellent post
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Old 02-28-2016, 05:51 AM
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What others call boring I call serenity
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Old 02-28-2016, 05:57 AM
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What others call boring I call serenity
Love that! I will keep that in my mind as I continue this journey. It's gets lonely sometimes being home but I realize that drinking the feelings away was just a fantasy. The lonely was always here, just masked in wine. Now I can enjoy my evenings and know I will have no regrets tomorrow.
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Old 02-28-2016, 06:11 AM
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Love that! I will keep that in my mind as I continue this journey. It's gets lonely sometimes being home but I realize that drinking the feelings away was just a fantasy. The lonely was always here, just masked in wine. Now I can enjoy my evenings and know I will have no regrets tomorrow.
One thing that is often confused is being alone and being lonely. We have to remember that loneliness is when we don't like our own company
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Old 02-28-2016, 06:18 AM
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dangerous and embarrassing (the next morning) sexual encounters
Thank God we lived though some of those.
Many test the waters -- only to drown.
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Old 02-28-2016, 06:24 AM
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Im with you!!

I was in bed at 9 last night.

I was up at 5am today.

Ive walked my dogs and cuddled my kids and hugged my Lady and gotten some time to myself to reflect on gratitude and read a few chapters and i feel good and happy and content.

Boring is just fine with me.
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Old 02-28-2016, 06:26 AM
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I went outside early this morning to get the Sunday paper....I looked across the lake at the beautiful sunrise and I though to myself "Wow...that looks AMAZING...if I was hungover or had my first morning drink to avoid the hangover...I would have NEVER saw such a beautiful Gift from God..".I burst out in tears thinking of ALL the gifts that I could not receive because of alcohol. And how Jesus forgives me."
That might sound deep but, I really have been missing out on the joy of being fully human and fully alive. Blessings, Everyone! ♡CR
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Old 02-28-2016, 06:31 AM
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Yep, always the same story.

Im tired of it.
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Old 02-28-2016, 06:54 AM
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I went outside early this morning to get the Sunday paper....I looked across the lake at the beautiful sunrise and I though to myself "Wow...that looks AMAZING...if I was hungover or had my first morning drink to avoid the hangover...I would have NEVER saw such a beautiful Gift from God..".I burst out in tears thinking of ALL the gifts that I could not receive because of alcohol. And how Jesus forgives me."
That might sound deep but, I really have been missing out on the joy of being fully human and fully alive. Blessings, Everyone! ♡CR
We may give up alcohol but the gifts we receive are so much greater
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Old 02-28-2016, 07:09 AM
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Yes they are! Thanks for the great post MIRecovery... ♡CR
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