Woke up after heavy drinking night hating myself
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Woke up after heavy drinking night hating myself
Yesterday I woke up at 4 am and realized I had drank 13 beers. I didn't even remember getting the last 6 pack. I don't think I ever felt so disgusted with myself. I just thought that I don't want to be this person.
My usual pattern is every other day or every 3 days drinking about 8 beers. I've wanted to quit for a long time. Yesterday morning was the first really bad hangover I had in a long time. I had to spend most the day in bed. Usually, I get up and don't have a headache, but can still kind of function, not that that is great. But feeling like you're going to die and being too sick to even get out of bed for more than an hour is so much worse.
The only positive here, is that I had an unusually bed experience and that can be a motivator to get past drinking urges.
I know it can get better. It's just has been too hard for me to get through the drinking urges in the past. I keep making excuses and putting it off. All the while, I know this is insanity and I have to quit.
My usual pattern is every other day or every 3 days drinking about 8 beers. I've wanted to quit for a long time. Yesterday morning was the first really bad hangover I had in a long time. I had to spend most the day in bed. Usually, I get up and don't have a headache, but can still kind of function, not that that is great. But feeling like you're going to die and being too sick to even get out of bed for more than an hour is so much worse.
The only positive here, is that I had an unusually bed experience and that can be a motivator to get past drinking urges.
I know it can get better. It's just has been too hard for me to get through the drinking urges in the past. I keep making excuses and putting it off. All the while, I know this is insanity and I have to quit.
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Yes, it is insanity and denial plays a big part in addiction so it's easy to put it off or dismiss how bad things are. I'm glad that you're ready to stop drinking. The best thing is to come up with a plan for how you will stop and, just as important, how you will stay sober.
Yes, it is insanity and denial plays a big part in addiction so it's easy to put it off or dismiss how bad things are. I'm glad that you're ready to stop drinking. The best thing is to come up with a plan for how you will stop and, just as important, how you will stay sober.
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I know the feeling .. start out with x amount of beers .. then next day realize I went to the store (no recollection) and ended up drinking a more absurd amount of beer than usual.
We don't have to live like this anymore. I am on Day 6 .. I always used to give in to the first urge. Wish I could tell you why this time is different for me .. why I can ignore the urges. I don't know. The only thing I do know is once you get some momentum going .. a few days built up you don't want to throw them away.
We don't have to live like this anymore. I am on Day 6 .. I always used to give in to the first urge. Wish I could tell you why this time is different for me .. why I can ignore the urges. I don't know. The only thing I do know is once you get some momentum going .. a few days built up you don't want to throw them away.
I knew I had to stop, and did.
Read around the forum. Lots of stories of success. You can get past the urges. In fact, you must if you want to put drinking behind you.
Welcome! This a great place to share your story, vent, seek advice, hear other's experiences, and get support. People here really do care.
I've had a few of those "oh crap" moments after a night of drinking, so completely understand where you're coming from.
Hang in there!
I've had a few of those "oh crap" moments after a night of drinking, so completely understand where you're coming from.
Hang in there!
Hello and welcome! Last time I drank (which isn't long ago) I drank all that was left of a 12 pk. I think, 7 beers, I was only planning on one or two. I remember dropping to my knees in the bathroom floor begging God to take this away. Well, that was my moment and I decided to change and finally had the strength to do so.
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Hi and Welcome,
Yes, it is insanity and denial plays a big part in addiction so it's easy to put it off or dismiss how bad things are. I'm glad that you're ready to stop drinking. The best thing is to come up with a plan for how you will stop and, just as important, how you will stay sober.
Yes, it is insanity and denial plays a big part in addiction so it's easy to put it off or dismiss how bad things are. I'm glad that you're ready to stop drinking. The best thing is to come up with a plan for how you will stop and, just as important, how you will stay sober.
Beyond doing things like taking care of myself by eating, resting, exercise, etc., I just have to accept the fact that I am going to get urges to drink and feel anxious and irritable, especially for the first week or two. The only choice is to let it pass.
Welcome Snowball having a recovery plan really really helps whether that is here at SR at AA at Smart at AVRT there is lots of choice
Here are some useful links to read over
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ful-links.html
Here are some useful links to read over
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ful-links.html
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I know the feeling .. start out with x amount of beers .. then next day realize I went to the store (no recollection) and ended up drinking a more absurd amount of beer than usual.
We don't have to live like this anymore. I am on Day 6 .. I always used to give in to the first urge. Wish I could tell you why this time is different for me .. why I can ignore the urges. I don't know. The only thing I do know is once you get some momentum going .. a few days built up you don't want to throw them away.
We don't have to live like this anymore. I am on Day 6 .. I always used to give in to the first urge. Wish I could tell you why this time is different for me .. why I can ignore the urges. I don't know. The only thing I do know is once you get some momentum going .. a few days built up you don't want to throw them away.
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Sounds like what brought me to sobriety, waking up after a night of uncontrolled drinking and finally realizing the seriousness of my drinking problem.
I knew I had to stop, and did.
Read around the forum. Lots of stories of success. You can get past the urges. In fact, you must if you want to put drinking behind you.
I knew I had to stop, and did.
Read around the forum. Lots of stories of success. You can get past the urges. In fact, you must if you want to put drinking behind you.
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Yeah, it's definitely progressive. 15 yrs ago, I'd get pretty drunk off of 4 beers and would definitely get really sick if I had 5. Now, I can have 6 or 7 and not get sick. The hangovers actually got better, probably just a function of gaining a higher tolerance.
But this last one, drinking 13 beers, made me barely able to get up out of bed and I had to sleep throughout most of the day, just to get some relief. That experience is scarier to me than having to deal with urges and anxiety while sober.
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Hi soberwolf, Thanks for the links. I like the one about urge surfing. I've done something similar for headaches (not hangover headaches) and it works. I'll give it a try.
Snowball, I'm so happy to see you here. This place helped me find the courage to change my life. I was drinking all day when I found SR. I had lost all control and was completely dependent on it. This never needs to happen to you. Welcome!
Hope you feel much better tomorrow.
Hope you feel much better tomorrow.
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