ulfr

I keep going back and forth in AA i never stay there only for a few weeks and i dont know why
I get scared about talking because most of the time it dont makes sense
Sometimes i feel panicky and at the end of the meeting i get upset with myself because i dont make sense i also forget to thank people as i cant remember peoples names
I try and remember but my brain dont work so good
i really want to go back but while i was there the last time i told them i was transgender which am not now because of gender confusion
I want to be able to go but am scared that they will think am crazy then again i am crazy
oh i know that you dont have to talk but for some reason i do

FlacoJ

I'm looking to go for the first time, to AA, soon

ulfr

well done on going to your first meeting

eyeshake

I bounced in and out of AA for four years. There's a lot about it that doesn't help me stay sober: the Big Book and the prayers, namely. But there's a lot there that does help me stay sober: fellowship and the steps.

I wouldn't worry about what you're sharing in meetings. I worry too about rambling, etc. Just remember that by being there, you're committing to at least an hour of sobriety.

FormerWineGirl

Hi Lily good to hear from you. I think that all you need to be concerned about is how AA makes YOU feel. If you like the meetings and find them helpful, that's all that counts. Please don't worry about what you say or don't say, it isn't about how eloquently anyone speaks. Everyone is there for the very same reason: addiction.

Dee74

I agree with formerwinegirl Lily. If the meetings are helping you try not to focus too much on what other people might think etc.

The more you go the more comfortable you'll get, I think?

D

PurpleKnight

The main thing is that they are helpful, and any resource that is working I say keep it going, people in all aspects of life will have opinions, but that's their problem.

Do what works for you!!

Anna

If the meetings help you, Lily, just go and don't concern yourself with what others think. Just try to get what you can from the meeting.