How do I know if I'm an addict?
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How do I know if I'm an addict?
A quick recap of my life.. Started using Coke in my early 20s, of course it started off as just once in awhile. Then escalated to every night.. Calling out of work bc of it, starting drinking too much to help 'bring me down'. I od'd a couple times and ended up in hospital.
In 2007 I started using adderall. Went to dr 'seeking it'. In my mind it was a legal way of obtaining that high.. It was like 'legal Coke' in my mind. I never abused it. Never snorted it. Took as prescribed. One time I ran out and couldn't get to a dr apt for 3 wks. Felt so awful I got Coke again. Since that time, I have no used Coke.
Now, 9 years later I'm trying to wean myself off adderall. I told my dr I want off and so far so good. I'm starting to wonder if once I'm off adderall if I'm gonna crave Coke again? I sometimes wonder who the real me is bc I'm not sure I remember. I don't remember what it's like to live without that 'high' feeling.
I don't want to live like this anymore.. even tho I haven't done Coke in tears and don't abuse my adderall.. am I an addict? I'm just trying to figure things out in my life right now. I'm just looking for people's insight who have been in my shoes before.. That's all..
In 2007 I started using adderall. Went to dr 'seeking it'. In my mind it was a legal way of obtaining that high.. It was like 'legal Coke' in my mind. I never abused it. Never snorted it. Took as prescribed. One time I ran out and couldn't get to a dr apt for 3 wks. Felt so awful I got Coke again. Since that time, I have no used Coke.
Now, 9 years later I'm trying to wean myself off adderall. I told my dr I want off and so far so good. I'm starting to wonder if once I'm off adderall if I'm gonna crave Coke again? I sometimes wonder who the real me is bc I'm not sure I remember. I don't remember what it's like to live without that 'high' feeling.
I don't want to live like this anymore.. even tho I haven't done Coke in tears and don't abuse my adderall.. am I an addict? I'm just trying to figure things out in my life right now. I'm just looking for people's insight who have been in my shoes before.. That's all..
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you could try answering the 29 questions in this pamphlet - http://na.org/admin/include/spaw2/up.../IP/EN3107.pdf
Of course, you could use this method - when I first sought recovery someone told me - "Normal people never ask themselves if they might be an addict or an alcoholic. Go grab a cup of coffee, sit down, and enjoy the meeting."
Of course, you could use this method - when I first sought recovery someone told me - "Normal people never ask themselves if they might be an addict or an alcoholic. Go grab a cup of coffee, sit down, and enjoy the meeting."
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Originally Posted by thomas11 
Is adderall causing problems in your life? Or do you just want off it because morally you feel you are using it as a crutch? Just curious.
And last month I got a false positive preg test. It was a wake up call so to speak.. At that moment thinking I couldn't pop these pills anymore freaked me out and made me realize that I 'needed' them more than I realized. I'm in the process of tapering from 30mg and down to 10 right now. ..the only downfall of being on addy is the 'crash'.. but yeah...
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welcome aboard.... to a good place for getting headed down a better path.
As for your question, I'd suggest worrying less about what you call it and just focusing on what it is you want your life to be about?
The things you've shared in just your short post here suggest you DON'T want your life to be about "being high".... that you DO want your life to be lived knowing who you are.... that you are coming to realize that this path you are on isn't consistent with your true desires.
If what I'm picking up on is where you're at - then I would suggest you work on the choice to be drug free, to live your life fully by embracing it fully. If that's what you're after, this is a good place to stick around, learn and start understanding the path to freedom from drugs and / or alcohol.
As for your question, I'd suggest worrying less about what you call it and just focusing on what it is you want your life to be about?
The things you've shared in just your short post here suggest you DON'T want your life to be about "being high".... that you DO want your life to be lived knowing who you are.... that you are coming to realize that this path you are on isn't consistent with your true desires.
If what I'm picking up on is where you're at - then I would suggest you work on the choice to be drug free, to live your life fully by embracing it fully. If that's what you're after, this is a good place to stick around, learn and start understanding the path to freedom from drugs and / or alcohol.
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