soap has made it a year
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soap has made it a year
on 2-22 i stopped drinking alcohol last year. i always wanted to do one of these threads so here i am.
i don't imagine many of you know who i am as i rarely post but i have been here off and on here for a few years picking up tidbits that have helped in recovery.
i would consider myself a chronic relapser. i have quit for good so many times that i have lost track over 10 plus years. i pretty much stopped telling people i was quitting because i would get that look that said, "yeah right." most of my friends would just ask me if i was drinking at the moment while inviting me to functions. it got to the point where i believed i would never be able to quit because i had failed so many times. i believed i had put myself in a loop and taught myself to never succeed. i would always say just give in because you will eventually and there is no point in putting yourself through this torture. i'm still scared i might relapse again one day but as of now i feel pretty resolute. and i rarely give alcohol much thought anymore. it's just not an option.
i wish i could give some great advice to other relapsers like me. but the only thing i can say is what worked for me. one thing i did was never give up completely. i would go on benders after relapse sometimes lasting months. but all along i knew i had to quit and would plan another date to stop forever. starting and stopping was painful and each time the experience was worse and worse. i enjoyed drinking less and less. while i was drinking i was constantly logging how little i was actually enjoying myself. and how much it completely ruled my life.
i agree completely with those who say that you will quit when you want sobriety more than you want to drink. yes i still want to drink to relax, be social, and sink into that happy world of not caring. but more than that i want to avoid the torture that comes along with it. the times of starting and stopping taught me little things along the way. each time hammering home that It's just not worth it.
and it does get easier. i failed so many times at the 1-6 month mark. if you can just keep going through those dreaded alcoholic voice sessions during early sobriety, it does lessen in severity until they are almost non existent. anyway just thought i would share to celebrate a year and hope that it might help someone like me.
i don't imagine many of you know who i am as i rarely post but i have been here off and on here for a few years picking up tidbits that have helped in recovery.
i would consider myself a chronic relapser. i have quit for good so many times that i have lost track over 10 plus years. i pretty much stopped telling people i was quitting because i would get that look that said, "yeah right." most of my friends would just ask me if i was drinking at the moment while inviting me to functions. it got to the point where i believed i would never be able to quit because i had failed so many times. i believed i had put myself in a loop and taught myself to never succeed. i would always say just give in because you will eventually and there is no point in putting yourself through this torture. i'm still scared i might relapse again one day but as of now i feel pretty resolute. and i rarely give alcohol much thought anymore. it's just not an option.
i wish i could give some great advice to other relapsers like me. but the only thing i can say is what worked for me. one thing i did was never give up completely. i would go on benders after relapse sometimes lasting months. but all along i knew i had to quit and would plan another date to stop forever. starting and stopping was painful and each time the experience was worse and worse. i enjoyed drinking less and less. while i was drinking i was constantly logging how little i was actually enjoying myself. and how much it completely ruled my life.
i agree completely with those who say that you will quit when you want sobriety more than you want to drink. yes i still want to drink to relax, be social, and sink into that happy world of not caring. but more than that i want to avoid the torture that comes along with it. the times of starting and stopping taught me little things along the way. each time hammering home that It's just not worth it.
and it does get easier. i failed so many times at the 1-6 month mark. if you can just keep going through those dreaded alcoholic voice sessions during early sobriety, it does lessen in severity until they are almost non existent. anyway just thought i would share to celebrate a year and hope that it might help someone like me.
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Congratulations Soap! One year is an incredible accomplishment. I have been trying to stop for about four years, and have had several relapses. NYE I decided I was done with alcohol, and haven't had a drop since.
I hope to make a post very similar to yours on 1-1-17
I hope to make a post very similar to yours on 1-1-17
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