Hello guys
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Join Date: Feb 2016
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Hello guys
My anonymity isn't an issue, as you can tell by the name. I've lost control with my binge drinking, once again. I seem to let everything I enjoy, channel the onset of binge drinking. Exercising results in steroid use, which leads to my anxiety being worse then normal, which then leads to binges...
I just recently got out of the hospital, last night. I'm now going through a divorce and I am at rock bottom. The only thing I can think to do is chug liquor, but then wake up sick hating life. It's like I get that temporary break from crying and self pity only to wake up, be hungover, then go spend countless $$ on hotel rooms and alcohol. I do not want to drink, but I am powerless over the bottle. Just wanted to let some steam off, let my problems be known and introduce myself.
I just recently got out of the hospital, last night. I'm now going through a divorce and I am at rock bottom. The only thing I can think to do is chug liquor, but then wake up sick hating life. It's like I get that temporary break from crying and self pity only to wake up, be hungover, then go spend countless $$ on hotel rooms and alcohol. I do not want to drink, but I am powerless over the bottle. Just wanted to let some steam off, let my problems be known and introduce myself.
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Join Date: Aug 2007
Location: Upstate New York
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Welcome Charles - I'm so glad you found us. You are never alone.
I'm sorry you're going through the pain of a divorce. Getting numb seems like a way to cope, but it just makes us more miserable and anxious. I hope you'll keep reading and posting here. We all understand how you're feeling - we've been there. You can get your life back, Charles.
I'm sorry you're going through the pain of a divorce. Getting numb seems like a way to cope, but it just makes us more miserable and anxious. I hope you'll keep reading and posting here. We all understand how you're feeling - we've been there. You can get your life back, Charles.
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Join Date: Mar 2008
Location: SF Bay area, CA
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Welcome to the family. 
I'm glad you joined us. There is a lot of support and wisdom here. Do you have any support in real life? Would you consider going to AA meetings? AA isn't the only way to get sober, but it has worked for millions of people around the world.
I got sober with the help of my addiction counselor and daily visits to this site. It's kept me sober for over six years now. I hope we can do the same for you.
I'm glad you joined us. There is a lot of support and wisdom here. Do you have any support in real life? Would you consider going to AA meetings? AA isn't the only way to get sober, but it has worked for millions of people around the world.I got sober with the help of my addiction counselor and daily visits to this site. It's kept me sober for over six years now. I hope we can do the same for you.
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Join Date: Feb 2016
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Thanks so much guys! The closest AA I have near me is one hour, but now that I think about it, that is a lot cheaper then what I would spend going and drinking. Thanks for your replies, this site is going to be my crutch, I feel!
And twice a week, on Tuesday and Friday, they have a chat meeting at 9pm EST. That might be helpful for you too. 
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Join Date: Aug 2013
Location: Upper Midwest
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Welcome to SR, Charles. I am glad you are here with us. You will find a lot of support and helpful advice from the good people here. I know I have.
I hope you will post often and let us know how you are doing.
Remember this: That feeling of despair you are experiencing? It goes away with sobriety. It really does. And there is no better day than today to make a new start.
Good luck.
I hope you will post often and let us know how you are doing.
Remember this: That feeling of despair you are experiencing? It goes away with sobriety. It really does. And there is no better day than today to make a new start.
Good luck.
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Join Date: Feb 2015
Location: Midwest, USA
Posts: 2,054
Hi, Charles 
I'm sorry for what brings you here, but am very glad you found us!
As you already know, drinking will only make all of the issues you are going through worse. We've been there.
I'm sorry for what brings you here, but am very glad you found us!
As you already know, drinking will only make all of the issues you are going through worse. We've been there.
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Join Date: Feb 2015
Location: MN
Posts: 8,704
Hi Charles, very sorry to hear about divorce. I've had friends go through it, and it sounds like a very unpleasant experience regardless. Were you in the hospital due to alcohol? As you can see, you will find a lot of help here.
I could see peace instead of this
Join Date: Sep 2013
Location: Canada, eh
Posts: 2,360
Welcome Charles!
I remember lots of mornings where I woke up crying, I felt so horrible. I wanted to die.
I found out that I never have to feel like again and that life can be good.
I remember lots of mornings where I woke up crying, I felt so horrible. I wanted to die.
I found out that I never have to feel like again and that life can be good.
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Hanging in there
Today was rough, but my wife told me yesterday she wants to work things out. Today she's a little iffy, she is scared and I completely understand. We are speaking and communication is good. I wanted to drink so badly today but instead went and rented some movies and hung out with my church family and kept busy. I'm feeling better, still down, but it will pass.
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Join Date: Jul 2015
Location: Soberville, USA
Posts: 4,174
Charles,
Hi and welcome.
The elephant in the room is alcohol is addictive.
We are addicts. I am. You are. Everyone here is. There are probably way more alcohol addicts, alcoholics, in this world than the government admits...who cares..
Once we have admitted it to ourselves we can take steps to get well.
There are always...underlying issues...but the bottom line is...never drink again.
You will go through withdrawals and then you will crave.
It will suck for a while, but then you will get better.
I am way better, but I still crave...a few times a day.
But it gets better every day.
We now know, thanks to the internet, all about the negative effects of booze.
Before, it took a Dr. Visit and/or weeks/months in AA w a sponser to get to the bottom of the deal. It is not just liver damage.
Thank God you still have your family.
You are in a fight for your life.
Get through the detox and then change your life style to eliminate the booze.
Instead of drinking, volunteer, work out etc etc.
Make a plan.
Never drink again. Alcohol is poison. It causes brain damage.
Get well sir.
Hi and welcome.
The elephant in the room is alcohol is addictive.
We are addicts. I am. You are. Everyone here is. There are probably way more alcohol addicts, alcoholics, in this world than the government admits...who cares..
Once we have admitted it to ourselves we can take steps to get well.
There are always...underlying issues...but the bottom line is...never drink again.
You will go through withdrawals and then you will crave.
It will suck for a while, but then you will get better.
I am way better, but I still crave...a few times a day.
But it gets better every day.
We now know, thanks to the internet, all about the negative effects of booze.
Before, it took a Dr. Visit and/or weeks/months in AA w a sponser to get to the bottom of the deal. It is not just liver damage.
Thank God you still have your family.
You are in a fight for your life.
Get through the detox and then change your life style to eliminate the booze.
Instead of drinking, volunteer, work out etc etc.
Make a plan.
Never drink again. Alcohol is poison. It causes brain damage.
Get well sir.
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