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I don't really have a firm foundation under me yet .. all I know is the meeting last night was still fresh on my mind when I woke up and I'm motivated not to drink today and go to another meeting tonight.
There is a man who told my father that he would sponsor me .. I'm supposed to call him but haven't gotten the nerve to yet. I have social anxiety.
There is a man who told my father that he would sponsor me .. I'm supposed to call him but haven't gotten the nerve to yet. I have social anxiety.
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I know it is going to be tough for a while .. my entire life has revolved around drinking for years. Either drinking or wanting a drink really bad. When I had a job I would watch the clock and buy beer immediately when I would get out. My girlfriend has suffered as a result of my drinking as well .. besides the obvious safety concerns about riding around with a drunk person at the wheel, I've avoided doing things like going to the movies and normal things that people do to entertain themselves. I would take her to restaurants because they have beer .. but most nights for the years she's been with me is come home .. watch tv, drink, annoy her, pass out ... repeat the next day.
I want to look at all this in the past tense .. a very distant part of my past and be able to just think "I can't believe I lived like that."
I want to look at all this in the past tense .. a very distant part of my past and be able to just think "I can't believe I lived like that."
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I don't really have a firm foundation under me yet .. all I know is the meeting last night was still fresh on my mind when I woke up and I'm motivated not to drink today and go to another meeting tonight.
There is a man who told my father that he would sponsor me .. I'm supposed to call him but haven't gotten the nerve to yet. I have social anxiety.
There is a man who told my father that he would sponsor me .. I'm supposed to call him but haven't gotten the nerve to yet. I have social anxiety.
Take the sponsor! This is a golden opportunity. Just call. If you're going to be nervous, you might as well get it over with. I'm sure it's a nice guy and if you explain to him that you have social anxiety and that it's a difficult call for you, he'll understand.
Stop thinking, pick up the phone, make the call. Then come back and tell us how it went.
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The conclusion I'm coming to from the meetings is that "Just not drinking" is not enough. Sooner or later my motivation to not drink will be tested and if my only strategy is "Just don't drink" .. it likely won't be enough.
I know that's been said on SR a lot. Somehow all of this has been right on my screen for a long time here on SR but it hasn't started really sinking in until I hear from people in person.
Something about the faces, the joy, the tears, the feeling of humanity. I know you are all very real and it was SR that got me motivated again .. I guess what I'm trying to say is I think I need SR as well as A.A.
I know that's been said on SR a lot. Somehow all of this has been right on my screen for a long time here on SR but it hasn't started really sinking in until I hear from people in person.
Something about the faces, the joy, the tears, the feeling of humanity. I know you are all very real and it was SR that got me motivated again .. I guess what I'm trying to say is I think I need SR as well as A.A.
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Anyway .. may as well give an update. Months back I posted a thread saying I can't ever make it past day 3 .. I would make it to 2 and a half days and cave in. I made it to the 4th day once but never finished the day without a drink.
I am currently on day 3. Lately it's been hard to even get back to day 3 .. have been caving in on day 2.
As I said I went to one meeting this morning .. I am eating and drinking water to try to stay feeling as well as I can. I think I need to go another meeting this evening. Day 4 is tomorrow .. never have made it to Day 5. Hoping if I have two meetings worth of things in my head and a bunch of SR things in my head before I go to sleep, I will wake up motivated again and succeed.
I am currently on day 3. Lately it's been hard to even get back to day 3 .. have been caving in on day 2.
As I said I went to one meeting this morning .. I am eating and drinking water to try to stay feeling as well as I can. I think I need to go another meeting this evening. Day 4 is tomorrow .. never have made it to Day 5. Hoping if I have two meetings worth of things in my head and a bunch of SR things in my head before I go to sleep, I will wake up motivated again and succeed.
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That's wonderful Grendhar. It's getting through to you. I won't push you about it anymore after this, but would you really want to miss out on the incredible things a sponsor can do for you? Or prevent you from doing? It's up to you. Pick up the phone. You can do it.
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Anyway .. may as well give an update. Months back I posted a thread saying I can't ever make it past day 3 .. I would make it to 2 and a half days and cave in. I made it to the 4th day once but never finished the day without a drink.
I am currently on day 3. Lately it's been hard to even get back to day 3 .. have been caving in on day 2.
As I said I went to one meeting this morning .. I am eating and drinking water to try to stay feeling as well as I can. I think I need to go another meeting this evening. Day 4 is tomorrow .. never have made it to Day 5. Hoping if I have two meetings worth of things in my head and a bunch of SR things in my head before I go to sleep, I will wake up motivated again and succeed.
I am currently on day 3. Lately it's been hard to even get back to day 3 .. have been caving in on day 2.
As I said I went to one meeting this morning .. I am eating and drinking water to try to stay feeling as well as I can. I think I need to go another meeting this evening. Day 4 is tomorrow .. never have made it to Day 5. Hoping if I have two meetings worth of things in my head and a bunch of SR things in my head before I go to sleep, I will wake up motivated again and succeed.
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I know the meeting he goes to every morning .. I think rather than making a phone call out of the blue I may just show up at that meeting. My father will be there too so it'd help with my anxiety because he can introduce us.
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