I made it to 4 years
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Congrats on four years, Sasha. You deserve all these kudos and congrats. Four years is an amazing accomplishment, and an inspiration. I'm sorry you're struggling lately. By staying sober, you're giving yourself the best chance of working through whatever is bothering you.
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Join Date: Jun 2012
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Sasha ,
I don't know if it's a 4 year thing but the last few months have been hard for me too .
Just recently i've began to make changes again. I ask myself what have i done for my sobriety recently .
I found myself drifting, not fully engaging, going through the motions, sitting on my pity pot wondering why life was doing this and that to me, letting resentments grow and things fester. Not dealing with stuff or getting help.
So i'll ask you, what have you done for your sobriety recently ?
You can make your recovery glorious , so can i
m
I don't know if it's a 4 year thing but the last few months have been hard for me too .
Just recently i've began to make changes again. I ask myself what have i done for my sobriety recently .
I found myself drifting, not fully engaging, going through the motions, sitting on my pity pot wondering why life was doing this and that to me, letting resentments grow and things fester. Not dealing with stuff or getting help.
So i'll ask you, what have you done for your sobriety recently ?
You can make your recovery glorious , so can i
m
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Join Date: Jun 2010
Location: UK
Posts: 2,937
Oh my goodness - so many messages, so many nice words.
I love you all, especially my beloved Dee.
I have started going to meetings more.
I actually bumped into an old school friend at one.
Not seen her since I was 18.
I'm 42 now.
I think she is 44.
I didn't know she was and she didn't know I was.
Its been great.
When I was sat next to her in a meeting, when I was not looking, she dropped some chocolate bars into my handbag as a nice surprise. I didn't see her do it.
I found it later on when I was at home, feeling sorry for myself.
It made me smile.
We text a lot.
We are going to do more things together.
I feel like she is my sister in sobriety.
She takes care of me, gives me a cuddle and made me stand up to say I had 4 years sober at a meeting.
I never spoken at a meeting before. Not ever! Always just listened.
Everyone cheered and I felt really happy.
I think my biggest problem is that I isolate myself and I think very black and white.
I need to do more for me.
So Mecanix - what I have I done for my sobriety recently? I found myself a big sober sister!
I wish you all the best
I love you all, especially my beloved Dee.
I have started going to meetings more.
I actually bumped into an old school friend at one.
Not seen her since I was 18.
I'm 42 now.
I think she is 44.
I didn't know she was and she didn't know I was.
Its been great.
When I was sat next to her in a meeting, when I was not looking, she dropped some chocolate bars into my handbag as a nice surprise. I didn't see her do it.
I found it later on when I was at home, feeling sorry for myself.
It made me smile.
We text a lot.
We are going to do more things together.
I feel like she is my sister in sobriety.
She takes care of me, gives me a cuddle and made me stand up to say I had 4 years sober at a meeting.
I never spoken at a meeting before. Not ever! Always just listened.
Everyone cheered and I felt really happy.
I think my biggest problem is that I isolate myself and I think very black and white.
I need to do more for me.
So Mecanix - what I have I done for my sobriety recently? I found myself a big sober sister!
I wish you all the best
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Join Date: Jun 2010
Location: UK
Posts: 2,937
Originally Posted by Dee74 
Very glad to see things are looking up a little Sasha
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I am sorry to be down.
I feel like I let you down when I am write I am down in posts on here.
I'm sorry.
I will be doing a lot more for me from now on.
I see that I need to now.
I often give work, problems, negative thoughts, regrets too much head space.
Thats not good.
I want to be light hearted more often.
A bit more carefree.
When I met my sober big sister I had wandered into a meeting not really sure if I should go.
I parked and then was getting ready to reverse my car and go, but when I looked in my mirror, someone had blocked me in with their car.
So I had to go in or sit in my car for an hour in the cold.
I went to get a hot drink and a voice said 'tea or coffee' without looking up.
I said tea and we glanced at each other and I said 'wow its you!!! How are you? You look great. How did this happen to you?'
She was tickled pink too!!
We were like excited kids at school and she introduced me as 'her friend' to all her friends.
We both never stopped beaming. We held hands.
She showed me some of her injury pictures from drinking on her phone.
I was shocked.
They were bad, bad, bad.
It made me feel really protective of her.
I told her she was better than that.
I feel like I have a little secret now and whenever I think about it, it makes me smile.
I still love you all. xxxx
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Join Date: Oct 2012
Posts: 5,937
Congrats, Sasha! I know you've gone through a lot. You should be very proud of reaching such a milestone. I think I understand a bit; the anniversaries of my sobriety date don't move me as much as time passes. Sobriety has become more of the 'normal' than something I have to think about at regular intervals. Still it's good to look back lest one become complacent.
It's been awesome to see how much you've overcome. Without really meaning to I think that as we get to know our fellow SR-mates we subconsciously have lists of those we think will stay sober and the ones that won't. I certainly don't want to judge anyone and I have to right to. Still it's really awesome to see that you're still standing, still facing everything life has thrown at you while staying sober.
It's been awesome to see how much you've overcome. Without really meaning to I think that as we get to know our fellow SR-mates we subconsciously have lists of those we think will stay sober and the ones that won't. I certainly don't want to judge anyone and I have to right to. Still it's really awesome to see that you're still standing, still facing everything life has thrown at you while staying sober.
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Originally Posted by MythOfSisyphus
Congrats, Sasha! I know you've gone through a lot. You should be very proud of reaching such a milestone. I think I understand a bit; the anniversaries of my sobriety date don't move me as much as time passes. Sobriety has become more of the 'normal' than something I have to think about at regular intervals. Still it's good to look back lest one become complacent.
It's been awesome to see how much you've overcome. Without really meaning to I think that as we get to know our fellow SR-mates we subconsciously have lists of those we think will stay sober and the ones that won't. I certainly don't want to judge anyone and I have to right to. Still it's really awesome to see that you're still standing, still facing everything life has thrown at you while staying sober.
It's been awesome to see how much you've overcome. Without really meaning to I think that as we get to know our fellow SR-mates we subconsciously have lists of those we think will stay sober and the ones that won't. I certainly don't want to judge anyone and I have to right to. Still it's really awesome to see that you're still standing, still facing everything life has thrown at you while staying sober.
I used to think I could only get through life's problems with a drink.
I think I also used to 'big up' problems too. In other words make the issue out to be a lot worse than it was as a way to justify my drinking.
Its a good place to be
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