Throwing away the empties
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Throwing away the empties
I had the pleasure of scouring my parents' basement for the empties I've hid there for the past 4 years. My father and I found 17 empty 22 oz bottles hidden in boxes of books and clothes. That's roughly 33 beers I stashed away because I was too ashamed to let my parents see the quantity I was consuming on my occasional weekend trips to my boyhood home.
Upon reflecting, I've come to realize that I got a thrill from hiding my addiction from others. I guess I felt a sense of empowerment, which is odd b/c I was a slave to my alcoholism for years. The more distance I get from a drink (I'm on day 41), the stranger my history of abuse becomes.
Upon reflecting, I've come to realize that I got a thrill from hiding my addiction from others. I guess I felt a sense of empowerment, which is odd b/c I was a slave to my alcoholism for years. The more distance I get from a drink (I'm on day 41), the stranger my history of abuse becomes.
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I still find empty beer cans every once in a while in totally random places... Smh. I used to take my empty vodka bottles to public trash cans so my neighbors never knew how much I was drinking (we shared a recycle bin). I didn't think it was a big deal at the time, but now it seems ridiculous. SO happy I don't live like that anymore!!
I used to set my alarm clock for 3 in the morning so I could dispose of my empties in the neighborhood's church recycle bin... now looking back: that was absolutely insane.
Like you, I think I got a sick thrill from hiding my addiction like living a double life up to the point where it started like having a second full time job.
Good going with being honest with your dad and getting rid of the empties
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Upon reflecting, I've come to realize that I got a thrill from hiding my addiction from others.
Good going with being honest with your dad and getting rid of the empties
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I would always get shooter bottles. They were easy to conceal. Also i thought they help me moderate. Guess again. Policing them up was like a twisted easter egg hunt. Then the bag that i used would jingle around like a pair of morracas.
One or two at a time mixed with random trash into convenience store trash cans was my usual. I'd be nervous every time . . . which is silly, because it's a trash can for customers, which I was, I was really feeling guilty for having to hide it in the first place because I knew I was lying to myself and those around me.
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