BD84

Mav, the weekend was a bender. I feel like crap. I also take full responsibility.

I cant drink. I dont want to. I made it to 12 days a ruined it all. I know my wife is so disapointed and so am I.

Day 1 again.....

doggonecarl

Sorry you had to burn your hand to learn that the stove is hot. But you were warned.

Hope your plan, moving forward, is complete and utter sobriety.

ScottFromWI

What do you think you could add or change to your sobriety plan to make sure that you don't drink again?

BD84

I dont want to drink anymore. I cant drink. I have just been scared to not participate because they will show there is an issue.

My health and marriage are more important than what people know or think. My plan is to start stringing days together again. It was so nice and I felt so great. I have to tell myself and others no. I still cant believe I let it get to this.

mav

Hey BD. Focus on those reasons. You can do it. Good luck.

doggonecarl

That's a goal, not a plan.

A plan is how you will accomplish stringing those days together. Go back and read the replies to your initial post. A lot of them talk about plans and provide helpful links.

BD84

Good Morning Folks,

Well, today is 02/08/17. It has been 1 year since I created this post and failed miserably on my goal of not drinking which became a goal of moderating.

You guys warned me and were right. I decided to comit to sobriety on 08/14/16. Below is a list of things I no longer have to deal with that I was dealing with a year ago:


1.) I am not scared of myself
2.) I am not scared of the future
3.) I am not scared of alcohol
4.) I am not dependant on alcohol
5.) I hide nothing
6.) I am not constantly scheming
7.) I am not constantly sad
8.) I am not scared of bedtime
9.) I sleep great
10.) I dont have alcohol dreams
11.) My wife is happy
12.) I am happy
13.) I feel great
14.) I am not depressed or anxious
15.) I feel like a normal person again


The devil temps me and will for the rest of my life. I will not let him and alcohol regain control ever again. It was terrible.

Thank you guys for being there for me.

179 days!!!!

MsCooterBrown

Good for you....apparently I should look at dates. 179 days ...fantastic. It appeared to me you were still struggling.

doggonecarl

soberandhonest

Congrats BD84! Six months of sobriety is great! Keep it up.

january161992

hi BD84

glad youre back

2ndhandrose

I read the whole thread and let me tell you how much I was hoping to read today's exciting update!!!

ScottFromWI

Fantastic news BD, and indeed a happy ending to the thread. Keep it up!

Dee74

Congrats BD

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saoutchik

Congratulations BD84, I read the whole thread and to read your latest post was incredibly uplifting

DesertTraveler

Thanks for the post BD84. You can do this. Just say no and take it one day at a time. We are with you!

Pete6256

Wow, I just read that entire thread from beginning to end, it was quite eye-opening.

As I started reading through I found myself agreeing with BD 100%. Personally I thought everyone was being extremely harsh with BD over his drinking. All he wanted was just to be a 'normal' sociable drinker and enjoy life like everyone else, and not drink like an alcoholic ruining his life. I get that completely, that's what I want for myself. I honestly think I would have written BD's posts word for word had I been him.

I was hoping I could somehow 'graduate' one day into a normal casual drinker who is in control, but now I'm not so sure. I'm really new to all this, but maybe this has to be a journey to complete abstinence forever. I hadn't really considered that.

Thanks for posting though, that was really insightful.

columbus

"I was hoping I could somehow 'graduate' one day into a normal casual drinker who is in control, but now I'm not so sure."

Speaking strictly for myself, I tried and tried and tried and tried

and it never never never

N E V E R

worked.

Pete6256

That's what I keep hearing Columbus.

I know I am new to this but I seriously can't imagine life never drinking again. Even if it's pina colada on holiday, a sherry at Christmas, champagne at a wedding, I can't imagine never doing any of that again. But I guess it's a slippery slope. If I was able to have those things without going downhill, I probably wouldn't even be here.

Hevyn

How wonderful, BD. I'm so happy you have a great new life.