02/08/16
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This afternoon has been rough. I had 0 cravings until now. And its not a craving to take a load off and have a beer. Its a craving to down a bottle of gatoraid with a half pint of vodka on the way home. Brain says the things im going through will be better. Thats a lie. They will be worse.
Going home to have a chill out tea and walk the dog.
Going home to have a chill out tea and walk the dog.
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Originally Posted by BD84 
Detoxing and intending to never get sloppy again. I wont touch a sip so long as I feel any AV. The AV not only says drink today but says keep going and going and going. Its the drinking to get drunk that is going to stop.
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Originally Posted by BD84
I have always been open and honest here and will continue to do so. I have come so far and have made the decision to no longer binge drink and no longer consume any at all very often.
I also don't know how many times I've heard people say "at least I was honest" as an excuse for hurting themselves or other people. In this and other cases, being honest is, in fact, the very least that they could do.
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Not real sure I understand the above post.
Today is day 6! It felt so amazing to wake up on a Saturday morning and not feel like crap. Today I will participate in an activity that I have not abstained from drinking during in over 10 years. No better day to start than today. All the wise words in this post from others when obviously my AV was screaming are starting to ring so true.
There are no sleep issues anymore but still some getting to sleep (twitches) but knowing I dont have to start the whole withdrawl process over again Monday night is the best feeling I have had in a while.
I will be out with good friends tonight and remember it tomorrow!!!!
Thank you all for all the support!!
Today is day 6! It felt so amazing to wake up on a Saturday morning and not feel like crap. Today I will participate in an activity that I have not abstained from drinking during in over 10 years. No better day to start than today. All the wise words in this post from others when obviously my AV was screaming are starting to ring so true.
There are no sleep issues anymore but still some getting to sleep (twitches) but knowing I dont have to start the whole withdrawl process over again Monday night is the best feeling I have had in a while.
I will be out with good friends tonight and remember it tomorrow!!!!
Thank you all for all the support!!
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Day 9 and God only knows the last time I have slept this good. The falling asleep process gets easier by the night!
Only now do I realize the affects binge drinking even if occasional or only on weekends has on the body. Its worse on the brain than all day daily drinking.
Only now do I realize the affects binge drinking even if occasional or only on weekends has on the body. Its worse on the brain than all day daily drinking.
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Day 10!
Going last weekend without liquor might go down as the best decision ever. Had no idea I was going all week with brain fog after the weekend binge. The thought of going back down that road is not a pleasent one. I would do songood all week just to ruin it on the weekends and called this "better" since it wasnt 5-7 days a week still. That was not to bright.
Going last weekend without liquor might go down as the best decision ever. Had no idea I was going all week with brain fog after the weekend binge. The thought of going back down that road is not a pleasent one. I would do songood all week just to ruin it on the weekends and called this "better" since it wasnt 5-7 days a week still. That was not to bright.
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Day 11.
The twitches when falling asleep are gone.
The craving is gone.
The feeling like I dont have control is gone.
The brain longing for Friday is gone.
The waking unrested is gone.
The not remembering is gone.
The brain fog is gone.
My brain is recovering and I am happy and have no anexiety witout the substance. I no longer pick at my nails all day.
I was anixous because I drank and I drank becase I was anxious. The anexiety was caused by a very bad time in my life and thats when the devil snuck in and taught me to binge it all away. That became a cycle and it is now over!
I learned from that devil and know how easy it would be to slip back due to one party, holiday, hard time, or stressor. This will not be happening!
Happy Thursday folks!
The twitches when falling asleep are gone.
The craving is gone.
The feeling like I dont have control is gone.
The brain longing for Friday is gone.
The waking unrested is gone.
The not remembering is gone.
The brain fog is gone.
My brain is recovering and I am happy and have no anexiety witout the substance. I no longer pick at my nails all day.
I was anixous because I drank and I drank becase I was anxious. The anexiety was caused by a very bad time in my life and thats when the devil snuck in and taught me to binge it all away. That became a cycle and it is now over!
I learned from that devil and know how easy it would be to slip back due to one party, holiday, hard time, or stressor. This will not be happening!
Happy Thursday folks!
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Originally Posted by Zonda
MAV, did you actively plan what to do on the weekends?
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