Bplrm8

So here I sit frazzled. I hope he doesn't find out I'm on this board. Then again I might tell him when he wakes up.
Here is a little background on me and our story. When we met I was struggling with bipolar disorder. Going through different meds and therapy. I was unable to work, which was fine with him. He preferred that I take care of the house and my son, and he would take care of us and everything else.
I left my family and lost my friends, and moved in with the man I love more than anything else (other than my son). At the time he only drank beer and didn't get drunk. I saw no issues.
Fast forward, and he now drinks half a bottle of crown royal every afternoon (start at 4). By 6 or 7 he is slurring his words and forgetting about things said 5 minutes earlier (he calls this short term memory) and getting an attitude. The next day anything discussed after 6pm the night before is lost to him (again he says short term memory).
I feel trapped. I don't have any friends, and I can't stay with family (no room). I have no job or money. I have told him that I have looked into shelters. But I truly don't want to leave, I want the man I fell in love with back.
He doesn't physically abuse us, but the emotional toll it takes (as I cry every night) is almost more than I can bear.

sugarbear1

Sending you love and hugs

Fly N Buy

That's very painful, sorry - you're not alone.

Have you considered seeking outside resources such as Al-Anon and/or
counselling?

There are many others here posting on the friends and family forum with similar experiences - you might consider checking out that are of SR as well.

Glad you're here with us - keep posting

least

I'm sorry for what brings you here, but want to welcome you to the family. I too would suggest AlAnon for support, as well as our friends and family forum.

You are not alone.

Bplrm8

I have given thought to Al-Anon, however I don't want to bring my son (he's only 6,and has no idea that anything is wrong). I also have nobody to keep him while I attend, other than my (how should I refer to him here in shorthand?) While I trust him with my son, I try to limit the exposure without my presence to intervene if I think agitations might happen. I might add that we are working on adhd, odd (oppositional defiance), and anxiety with my son.

Also thank you all for welcoming me, it brought tears to my eyes.

doggonecarl

Sorry for what brings you here. Sadly, until he wants to get sober, for himself, he won't.

See our F&F forum:
Friends and Family of Alcoholics - SoberRecovery : Alcoholism Drug Addiction Help and Information

maia1234

Bp,
Sending hugs. If you can't make alanon meetings keep reading on SR. There is so much good information in these forum. You can educate yourself about this horrible disease.

You are not alone as we all love an addict, that is why we are all here, looking for support. WE DO understand the craziness in your life. Some time alanon meetings have day care. Reach out and see if you can find one.

Hugs my friend, we are here 24 hours a day for support!!

Soberwolf

Welcome Bp you have found a awesome wonderful supportive community

Mountainmanbob

Counseling at a local church helped my wife when she was in your situation.
Plus, she read the AA Big Book (explains a lot about alcoholism in that book)
M-Bob

Dee74

AH (addicted/alcoholic husband) is the usual way to refer, bp

I'm sorry for what brings you here but I'm glad you found us - this is a place of great support

D

PurpleKnight

Welcome to the Forum Bplrm!!

Hevyn

I'm glad you came here to talk it over, Bplrm. I'm very sorry for the painful time you're going through. I hope being with us helps with the anxiety you're feeling.