What have you tried in the past recovery wise Teardrops x
Struggled, prayed, looked to the Lord. Threw myself into stuff keeping busy. When ever I found myself struggling knowing I had to stop, I'd run out of whatever it was I was using, and no matter what I wouldn't get any more, withdraws were never that during times like that. Always seem to pick up some other addiction through, some so bad some not so good. Once I turned to drinking to help me get through. Years ago when I snorted coke. I smoked tons of weed, from morning to night. Kept up with til one evening when a friend of my husband came over with a large bottle of Jack. An eight ball, bag of weed and some pills. I over did it , ended up in the bathroom on the floor, couldn’t get for a long time, my head felt it alas going to explode. Scared me to no ends, not sure how I managed to quick everything at that time but did. Once a friend helped me through, She was in the same boat as me, we helped one another. I remember withdraws that time were pretty bad, I gave in a few times but kept trying. Times felt like stuff was crawling under my skin and I shut everyone out and kept to myself. Plus that time we’d go into NA chatroom, that helped. That was 7 or eight years ago. Since, everytime I see I’m beginning to go to lose grip, I got a grip on it before going to far. Fight the cravings. Now it’s different, know I need to get a grip on it but I don’t too.it’s not that I want to stay messed up or anything. Not sure what it is.
I'm doing, cold, and a headache. It's been a long day. Not a bad day just long day. I want to knock myself out and sleep. Not sure I ca n sleep without taking anything. I've actually gone today without taking anything.
