dogslover2016

I will have 2 weeks tomorrow. Longest stretch since I was pregnant in 2001.

I attended a company event today; champagne was passed at the end. I broke into a cold sweat. I suddenly became really resentful and my mood plummeted. I declined and no one even blinked, no big deal...

But then I felt really pissy and internally whiny and made excuse that I needed to get home. Again, no big deal to my co-workers.

On my way out I was stopped by a good friend, just as I was passing the open bar with people lined up. I chatted, I think politely, but could not wait to get the hell out of there.

Got to my car and burst into tears. Irrational but I felt sorry for myself that I just can't be "normal" - I know.... I just needed to share with people who get it.

I am seriously tearing up again even now. -sigh- what a baby.

Thanks for listening

biminiblue

Early sobriety is really emotional. I think I cried at everything in the first month. Serious.

Well done on staying sober tonight! You're really not missing anything, honest.

Congrats on two weeks.

biminiblue

...and good job getting out of there when you felt at risk. That reaction will serve you well in sobriety and in life.

Dropsie

Completely with you on the crying front.

What is that all about??

Just hang in -- you are not missing anything, and take it from me, not worth it.

SoberinSyracuse

You're still getting used to living sober. This won't continue.

FWIW, I went through "grief" over "losing" alcohol before I quit. I was very sad and tearful. It got out of my system and I'm not grieving it anymore. In fact, when I see people boozing it up, I'm really glad to not be one of them.

I'm sure you'll feel better about these types of things as you progress in sobriety. I'm just glad you got out of there...or you'd REALLY have something to cry about!

ReadyOrNot123

Good job, and it does get easier in time. Early sobriety is the absolute worst. Hang in there.

mav

Great job. I hope tomorrow this feeling of sadness is replaced by one of happiness for being strong today... You deserve it.

FWIW not drinking IS normal, so if you're not drinking then you ARE normal. Keep it up!

Thumpalumpacus

Congrats on your two weeks and especially on protecting it under pressure.

Hevyn

I was that way too in the early days. Very sorry for myself, as you said - angry & on edge. All the negative feelings left me as I adjusted to my new life. We lived that way for so long - fell back on it to cope with things - be patient with yourself.

Proud of you, dogslover - you're doing great.

least

Early recovery can be a bumpy ride, emotionally. I was resentful at first, until I realized that I didn't want to drink normally, I wanted to get drunk. And believe me, waking up sober and feeling good never gets old.

Congrats on two weeks sober! Keep on keepin' on. It gets better.

SoberinSyracuse

Amen, that's absolutely right. We seem to see alcohol everywhere but that's 'cuz we're a little bit obsessed by it. And also we've shaped our worlds around it for a long time. Truth is, most people either don't drink or rarely drink.

That's why nobody thought anything of it when you didn't and had not a clue that you were upset.

On The Road

Be proud of yourself for having a plan and staying sober.

The good news is (I heard this early on and didn't believe it either!) it really does get easier.

Give yourself some more sober time to find out. Hang in there!

Fly N Buy

The plan
1. Don't drink
2. Exit strategy
3. Grow through pain


You get an A today
Well done

ecm76

Im right there too. Crying at the drop of a hat. Resentful about others, resentful at myself for putting myself in dstupid situations and f-ing everything up. Its really good to hear that I'm not alone and that it gets better.

teatreeoil007

I can relate. I was very emotional too and my head was spinning around and I wasn't sure about anything except I needed to stay on the path...It's almost 6 months now and I'm feeling really good but don't want to get over confident! Hang in there...it is totally worth it. You will feel good again.

dogslover2016

So true! My obsession with alcohol is NOT normal! That actually made me chuckle a little.

How warped my brain, lol. I knew you guys would get it.

JulySeaCoast

It feels like a romantic breakup to me. You had to dump your love because it was no good for you. It hurts to see your ex out in public having fun with someone else. I am mourning my breakup with wine.

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Ariesagain

Oh, all those poor people paying through the nose to ingest a Class One carcinogen that will give them heartburn, terrible breath, and most likely a headache tomorrow.

In the words of that immortal philosopher Mr. T, "I pity the fools!"

Hold your head high and give yourself a round of applause!

PurpleKnight

Hang in there!!

It's a rough ride in the beginning, but there's plenty of people here on SR that understand!!