Trying but afraid I might fail
 

Hi everyone, I am trying really hard not to drink but I feel like I might drink tonight. I have typed probably 6 or 7 posts in the last almost 4 hours and keep deleting them. I am trying to talk myself out of it but it feels like it's getting stronger and stronger. I try to remind myself why I am doing this but then my mind says, it's Friday, you can stop again on Sunday and be okay for work on Monday. The thing is I don't know if I will even stop on Sunday. I am on day 19 and really wanted to make 3 weeks on Sunday, I am afraid I'm not going to make it. Thanks for listening.

Hi Emme :)

I think most of us were afraid of not making it - but here's the thing - we absolutely don;t have to drink if we don't want to :)

I dunno about you but I've never regretted waking up sober :)

have you things to occupy your brain with tonight?

Have you tried any of these tips?
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...-cravings.html

you can do this :)

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Hang in there, emme; you can get through this.

Dee provided a great link.

If all else fails, go to bed. I did it many times in early sobriety.

It will feel fantastic to wake up without a hangover in the morning.

Rooting for you, emme.

Time for a long hot bath with some music in the background, followed by PJs so you won't even be tempted to go out. Curl up on the couch with a good book, or catch up on your favorite program. You will thank yourself in the morning!

Eat some ice cream. I was afraid that I wouldn't be able to quit too. It was that kind of thinking that kept me drinking. You have to start somewhere. Day 19 is great. Why would you want to muck that up? Come post on the weekend support thread.

You can make it Emme. :hug:
You've gotten through the really tough parts of early sobriety and have much to look forward to. If you pick-up, you have to do the same battle all over again and it isn't worth it. I learned that lesson the hard way in early sobriety.

Don't give in Emme--get those sober days added up and you'll find it easier and easier.

Push through this tough time.
Ice cream, bath, early bed, old movies. . .
whatever it takes

Emme, there are lots of good ideas here and I hope that you get through tonight. It will get easier.

The urge will pass. Go out for a walk call a friend. Worry about tomorrow when it comes but don't drink today. You made it 19 days don't throw them away. You are stronger than your addiction and you will make it

Thanks everyone~
I am not going to drink tonight. I went to the store, had wine in my cart, walked around for a while and ended up putting it back. I am home for the night. Thanks again everyone for your responses.

Yay!!!!!!!!!!! :You_Rock_

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Very nicely done for posting here and working through the craving! You will feel so much better about yourself and stronger now.

You deserve a nice treat... Ice cream float?

Glad you put the wine back, hope you find something special just for you this weekend!

I'm so glad to read that you put the wine back and are safely home for the night :) We're all so proud of you!!!!

Perfect ending, emme.

So proud of, and happy for, you.

Great job.

Waking up tomorrow morning is going to feel so great.

Nice Going Emmee!!!! You will be so glad in the morning. I hope you go do something nice for yourself tomorrow....you deserve it!!

It really is thinking about the consequences don't you think? For me the positives (at the moment) far outweigh the negatives. I now try to look at the morning afters and know how much I will hate it, and hate myself more. I don't feel so much like that anymore and want to build on that and don't want ever to return to drinking. You will be so glad you didn't act on it and another building block. :headbange. Not funny I know.

Emme, that took a lot of determination to put that wine back! You rock! Don't you feel proud of yourself? You should! I love the idea of a nice bath, jammies and a good book and/or netflix/tv. I've taken to drinking a lot of tea and (unfortunately) ice cream. I'm never sorry I didn't drink.:c011:

Good choice emme!

Putting that bottle back took a lot of strength, emme. You should be proud of yourself for making such a great choice! Congrats on 19 days! Now go do something nice for yourself. :)

Way to go! You should be proud!