Woke up in a snowy ditch at 4am
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There are many people here to support you until you leave for treatment, Vona and Sean.
My heart goes out to both of you as the struggles have hit hard. Now, it's time to turn the ship. You can do this.
Take good care.
My heart goes out to both of you as the struggles have hit hard. Now, it's time to turn the ship. You can do this.
Take good care.
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Well, here I am alone. Packing for treatment, and cleaning the house. Explain to me why I want to drink the bottle of wine I found in the closet? Only a day after waking up with hypothermia in a ditch. WTF is wrong with me? I am so ****** depressed. I can not seem to find the will power to throw it down the sink. I need you guys. Im a moment away here. Gawd this is so hard...
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Hang in there Vona! I've been there......That bottle of wine will only bring you misery if you drink it. Dump it down the drain. You will feel empowered when you do!!! Next, concentrate on packing for your treatment center. Think of how good you will feel in the morning when you wake up sober and hangover free....and the wine is long gone down the drain. You can do it!!!!
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Vona dear, I hope you poured it down the drain, or found the strength to stay away from it. Are you able to speak with your husband for support ? Thing about any and all support you could reach for, till Sunday.
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All good. Well, sort of, obviously. I read through Sean's recent relapse thread and was quite moved. Went to bed, stuck the earbuds in and watched a movie. Although I feel like the worst person in the world right now, at least I'm not going to wake up hungover and feeling much much worse. So sorry for the panic post there.
Why do we run so hard from a past that has made us who we are, good and bad?
Why do we run so hard from a past that has made us who we are, good and bad?
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Vona it's going to take a little time for the horrors to pass, I'm sitting in a hospital bed right now shaking and sweating. My bed is damp. This is the pits.
I ask you, why would we purposely do this to ourselves? Of course a drink is appealing.. It's so easy to drink that **** to escape the way we feel but the consequences are horrific.
You could have died. That's the reality.
I can't stop you but I know you will make the right choice. Let's take a stand and say no more.
No more will I hurt myself on purpose. No more will I let my life play out like this because of a bloody bottle.
I keep saying this and it's so true: life's hard, but it's so much harder when we drink.
Let's not help the misery along today. I KNOW you can do this because your better than that poison. Go to treatment. Even when you feel like ****, know it WILL get better. Know it WILL be ok.
I'm sending all my prayers to you Vona.
Please be strong
I ask you, why would we purposely do this to ourselves? Of course a drink is appealing.. It's so easy to drink that **** to escape the way we feel but the consequences are horrific.
You could have died. That's the reality.
I can't stop you but I know you will make the right choice. Let's take a stand and say no more.
No more will I hurt myself on purpose. No more will I let my life play out like this because of a bloody bottle.
I keep saying this and it's so true: life's hard, but it's so much harder when we drink.
Let's not help the misery along today. I KNOW you can do this because your better than that poison. Go to treatment. Even when you feel like ****, know it WILL get better. Know it WILL be ok.
I'm sending all my prayers to you Vona.
Please be strong
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I know you are right, Sean. I know. I'm just so disappointed in myself. My husband is leaving me. I know this. It's almost like I almost there, just at the corner to the right path, and bang, head on collision with ***ing life. I'm so bloody effed up that even though I almost died, I want that escape. Crazy. Crazy, crazy, crazy.
I'm not hi king of you too, Sean. Hugs.
I'm not hi king of you too, Sean. Hugs.
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Originally Posted by Dee74 
How are things Vona?
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Went through the the entire house and got rid of all the alcohol. Made a date on my return to go to an AA meeting with a friend of mine who has been free of booze for over 10 years. She hijacked me at home today. Haha. I was avoiding pretty much everyone the last few days.
It was therapeutic to talk to her. She shared with me some pretty scary stuff she did the years she was drinking, like waking up in many a ditch.
I have a chance here to do something right before it gets worse.
Anyways, hugs everyone. I'll catch up with you in a couple weeks.
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