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Location: Gulf Coast, USA
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Sean, get it straight, you absolutely can stop. You're not thinking clearly right now. Stop the cycle and reanalyze everything tomorrow. That's the only way this is going to get better... stop drinking, you have the power and the strength. We believe in you, but we can't do it for you.
You deserve to turn this around.
You deserve to turn this around.
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Join Date: Dec 2015
Location: Australia
Posts: 323
I'm going into hospital to detox. I don't have the willpower to just stop myself. Things got out of hand very quickly and I'm afraid of myself.
I want to seriously thank all of you for your support in this thread. Reading these posts a few times was enough to kick me up the butt. I poured the rest of my $4 wine down the sink and called my mate from AA. He's here now and were going to emergency.
I look forward to coming back and posting when I'm sober. If you are struggling and your AV Is testing you, PLEASE don't give in. Learn from my horrors and tell yourself that you won't go to this horrible place. Sobriety is peace.
Love you all, please be safe
Sean
I want to seriously thank all of you for your support in this thread. Reading these posts a few times was enough to kick me up the butt. I poured the rest of my $4 wine down the sink and called my mate from AA. He's here now and were going to emergency.
I look forward to coming back and posting when I'm sober. If you are struggling and your AV Is testing you, PLEASE don't give in. Learn from my horrors and tell yourself that you won't go to this horrible place. Sobriety is peace.
Love you all, please be safe
Sean
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Join Date: Jan 2015
Location: Toronto, Canada
Posts: 378
Sean, that makes me so happy to see you getting the help you need.
You're a worthy person and you deserve to be at peace and happy, just like we all do.
Please stay close to us and let us know how things are going.
We care for you!!!
You're a worthy person and you deserve to be at peace and happy, just like we all do.
Please stay close to us and let us know how things are going.
We care for you!!!
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Join Date: Dec 2015
Location: Dallas Texas
Posts: 579
Sean30, Glad to hear it. I'm right with you. I know I will not be drinking this weekend as they don't offer that beverage in jail. 
I got a few more weekends to go. what a mess we have both made of it.
I'm in a pretty deep hole but it is possible to climb out of it. Just takes time. I think God wants me in jail to learn patience. It's working. On the plus, I'm getting some opportunities I passed over drunk. Eventually one of them will turn into something.
When I'm in deep #$%^ I tell myself "the sun will come up again tomorrow." It always has. It will for you also and I hope it's a brighter day.
All the Best
Chris
I got a few more weekends to go. what a mess we have both made of it. I'm in a pretty deep hole but it is possible to climb out of it. Just takes time. I think God wants me in jail to learn patience. It's working. On the plus, I'm getting some opportunities I passed over drunk. Eventually one of them will turn into something.
When I'm in deep #$%^ I tell myself "the sun will come up again tomorrow." It always has. It will for you also and I hope it's a brighter day.
All the Best
Chris
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Join Date: Dec 2015
Location: Australia
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I'm sitting in a hospital bed alone on a Friday night. It's not even 8pm and there's people being brought into emergency for alcohol related stuff.
An aboriginal lady next to me got beaten nearly to death by her drunk partner. Her cries are scratching my soul.
They won't give me any Vallium because my blood alcohol is still to high. That's ok, i really don't want any because it feels good. I'm done with it all.
A nice Indian doctor sat on my bed before and we had a good talk. He told me I'm too young to be living like this. Don't push it until it's too late etc.
I'm terrified of sobering up because it hurts so much. I cannot believe I'm sitting here in hospital after a poor decision on Wednesday. Well that's the reality for me. This is what drinking does to me and I should be greatful I'm in hospital and not in jail.
God bless you all. Please stay sober.
An aboriginal lady next to me got beaten nearly to death by her drunk partner. Her cries are scratching my soul.
They won't give me any Vallium because my blood alcohol is still to high. That's ok, i really don't want any because it feels good. I'm done with it all.
A nice Indian doctor sat on my bed before and we had a good talk. He told me I'm too young to be living like this. Don't push it until it's too late etc.
I'm terrified of sobering up because it hurts so much. I cannot believe I'm sitting here in hospital after a poor decision on Wednesday. Well that's the reality for me. This is what drinking does to me and I should be greatful I'm in hospital and not in jail.
God bless you all. Please stay sober.
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