Relapse
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Join Date: Dec 2015
Location: Syracuse, NY
Posts: 1,232
By the way, Sean, it sounds like we were too late to talk you out of using, or maybe we couldn't have in any case. But I'm really proud of you for posting here instead of just vanishing.
Assuming you've slipped, let us support you to make it a slip instead of a relapse. Let's work together to get you back on the horse. You've been a great encouragement to me, and I'd appreciate if you could remain with me on this journey a while longer. I'm on Day 9.
Assuming you've slipped, let us support you to make it a slip instead of a relapse. Let's work together to get you back on the horse. You've been a great encouragement to me, and I'd appreciate if you could remain with me on this journey a while longer. I'm on Day 9.
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Join Date: Jan 2014
Posts: 8,637
Originally Posted by Sean30 
Thanks dee, SS and Loulou
But I might as well go all out
Down the hatchet, the feeling you can't match it
See you when this episode is over!!!!!
But I might as well go all out
Down the hatchet, the feeling you can't match it
See you when this episode is over!!!!!
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Join Date: May 2015
Location: UK
Posts: 1,042
Originally Posted by Dee74
It's a ridiculous way for an adult to live their life mate - you know it as well as I do.
Its why you landed here in the first place.
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Its why you landed here in the first place.
D
Hope you can hear it too Sean!
xx
One Day At A Time
Join Date: Feb 2015
Location: Midwest, USA
Posts: 2,054
Hey Sean,
Please when you read this check in and let us know you are alright. Not a lot gets me rattled these days, but your post has me and I'm guessing others worried about your safety.
Then- start again at Day 1. You have everything you need to stay sober just like we all do!
Please when you read this check in and let us know you are alright. Not a lot gets me rattled these days, but your post has me and I'm guessing others worried about your safety.
Then- start again at Day 1. You have everything you need to stay sober just like we all do!
The Long and Winding Road....
Join Date: Mar 2013
Location: Brisbane QLD
Posts: 897
Yep
Man I did that for years
It's just putrid and you know it
If you really wanna get clean try harder
Take it from someone who has had both relapses and good periods of recovery.
Peace
V
It's just putrid and you know it
If you really wanna get clean try harder
Take it from someone who has had both relapses and good periods of recovery.
Peace
V
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Thread Starter
Join Date: Dec 2015
Location: Australia
Posts: 323
Thanks for the replies and support.
Well today I feel absolutely shocking. Hungover, coming down and just absolutely miserable.
Why did it happen? I can't answer with any reason that would justify such a pitiful mistake.
I was becoming angry at myself and my situation and I truly had a **** it, **** this moment and snapped. I wanted to punish myself because I wasn't coping. I achieved that. Idiot.
I thought my recovery was strong. I really thought I had something strong and I was proud of my sober time.
I need to have a good hard look at what happened because I do NOT want to go back into this world. This drinking and using is not an option for me. It sucks & it's just where I left it. Miserable.
I'm sorry for my stupid posts last night but I sincerely want to thank you guys for your honest support. Reading the tread this morning was profound for me. I am still drinking but it's not going to continue, I'm just feeling sorry for myself.
I need you guys
Well today I feel absolutely shocking. Hungover, coming down and just absolutely miserable.
Why did it happen? I can't answer with any reason that would justify such a pitiful mistake.
I was becoming angry at myself and my situation and I truly had a **** it, **** this moment and snapped. I wanted to punish myself because I wasn't coping. I achieved that. Idiot.
I thought my recovery was strong. I really thought I had something strong and I was proud of my sober time.
I need to have a good hard look at what happened because I do NOT want to go back into this world. This drinking and using is not an option for me. It sucks & it's just where I left it. Miserable.
I'm sorry for my stupid posts last night but I sincerely want to thank you guys for your honest support. Reading the tread this morning was profound for me. I am still drinking but it's not going to continue, I'm just feeling sorry for myself.
I need you guys
One Day At A Time
Join Date: Feb 2015
Location: Midwest, USA
Posts: 2,054
Hey Sean,
I'm glad you posted. I agree with Dee, pouring out the booze and starting now is a great idea.
We have a meeting in the SR Chat meeting room- maybe join us? It's a great help I find.
I'm glad you posted. I agree with Dee, pouring out the booze and starting now is a great idea.
We have a meeting in the SR Chat meeting room- maybe join us? It's a great help I find.
Hillbilly Girl
Join Date: Dec 2013
Location: In my Garden
Posts: 3,953
Glad you posted Sean....you did not lose those clean & sober days & sounds like you know it's the path for you . Start again Sean & all will be OK, I know it's hard, I've done it many, many times myself....you are not alone in this!!
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Join Date: Aug 2007
Location: Upstate New York
Posts: 51,564
You learned something, Sean. Drinking/using will never give us what we're seeking. It's not fun, not relaxing, not an escape. I chased the old euphoria for a long time. It's gone & can never come back. You can get free, there is no doubt.
Thinking of you.
Thinking of you.
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Join Date: Jan 2013
Location: Georgia
Posts: 3,062
Sean I was thinking about you as I was driving to work this morning. Kind of interesting isn't it you in Australia and me here in little 'ol Vermont....and I'm thinking about you hoping you made it back from the edge. I was thinking about how I hope that you get that recovery is possible....it is hard work...but it is possible. It takes grit and courage. Stop drinking. Start recovery. Trust me....you will feel so much better.
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