I'm back
Running Blind
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Join Date: Aug 2004
Location: Sherman Texas
Posts: 31
I'm back
Some of you may remember my thread from last week in regards to starting over with my family. Well I spent 4.5 wonderful days filled with love with them. I went with no expectations (that's one of the biggest keys)....just a few hopes. My hopes were exceeded by an amount I can't even come close to explain. I left so much negative BS behind and yes....it feels as if I have been reborn. No longer do I look at my life just as my father did....I replaced his prescription glasses with my own and now I see exactly what I'm capable of...what a wonderful feeling. No longer will I need to wrap myself around another to filled my needs as I now see those qualites in myself. No longer am I a mistake (something my father said often). No longer do I believe I'm not lovable as I had 15+ people show me how much I'm loved. Thanks so much for everyone's support. Keep up your own quest....the answers will come when you are ready for them. It took me almost 34 years to find mine and what a blessing they have been.
Monica
Join Date: Sep 2004
Location: Coraopolis, PA
Posts: 36
Glad to hear you had a wonderful time with your family. I to went home this weekend and got to send the night with my son, who I haven't seen in 35 days. It was so awesome! I feel your joy
Monica
Monica
Running Blind
Thread Starter
Join Date: Aug 2004
Location: Sherman Texas
Posts: 31
Thank you...thank you. Yes it is a wonderful feeling. Sandy...no I didn't put a hex on the 'boys but I sure love the person who did. How about those 'skins....woohoo. These lyrics sure speak the truth about my life:
One thing that I must agree with
You got to step outside the picture just to see it
Everybody loses it sometimes
My eyes can't fake what you feel inside
*I had to step out of my picture to see me....to see what everyone else saw. When I did that...my world began to change*
Sometimes when I'm almost empty
I used to wish tomorrow never came and hit me
But today is a time worth living
So things have got to change
*Today is worth living and I no longer dread tomorrow. Some things had to change...when I started changing them...life became so much better.*
Can you ever imagine what it's like
To see every day
But through a hopeless set of eyes
Can you ever feel the want inside
It's all up to you
You've got to find out what you believe in over time
*I never could imaging what it was like to see everyday through eyes that weren't hopeless. I felt the want...didn't know how to get it. Then came my answer...it's inside me. Not in someone else...only in me.*
I'm not one that's into lyrics...but this song speaks volumes to me. *******...Before.
Lang79 I'm very happy for you and hope you and your son get more of those nights together.
One thing that I must agree with
You got to step outside the picture just to see it
Everybody loses it sometimes
My eyes can't fake what you feel inside
*I had to step out of my picture to see me....to see what everyone else saw. When I did that...my world began to change*
Sometimes when I'm almost empty
I used to wish tomorrow never came and hit me
But today is a time worth living
So things have got to change
*Today is worth living and I no longer dread tomorrow. Some things had to change...when I started changing them...life became so much better.*
Can you ever imagine what it's like
To see every day
But through a hopeless set of eyes
Can you ever feel the want inside
It's all up to you
You've got to find out what you believe in over time
*I never could imaging what it was like to see everyday through eyes that weren't hopeless. I felt the want...didn't know how to get it. Then came my answer...it's inside me. Not in someone else...only in me.*
I'm not one that's into lyrics...but this song speaks volumes to me. *******...Before.
Lang79 I'm very happy for you and hope you and your son get more of those nights together.
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