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You can control when you throw up. I have to But I can wait until there is no one around so they don't see me. I have been able to do this for years and have always been proud of it. When you control your breathing so they can't smell it. I'm ready to do this for good. I hope it sticks.

I would have the dry heaves most mornings after heavy drinking. And yes, I was sometimes able to hold them off until no one was around. Sometimes I was able. Not always.

These dry heaves were one of about 100 signs that it was time to quit drinking.

FWIW, with some prolonged sober time, the dry heaves have stopped. Completely. I wish the same for you.

Good luck

Blimey, I can so relate! All the coping mechanisms just to hide the dependence, I really really don't miss any of them.
I used to really struggle if my daughter and her boyfriend just dropped by, so worried they'd know I'd been drinking, so I'd keep a distance and the conversation short, then miss them when they'd gone!! You know you've a problem when you're doing that!
Let's NOT go back.
xx

Been there and got the T-shirt Ohme, I definitly never want to go back to those days.

You don't have to either, you can do this!! :)

Having a plan is vital here are some links for you to look over

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ful-links.html

Surely abstinence and recovery will be easier and take less skill and discipline than breath and puke control. That almost sounds like something a Tibetan monk would master.

I'm glad you're ready Ohme - welcome back :)

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