hi im drunk
I'd suggest you pour out the rest of it and go to bed and sleep it off.
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01/02/2016 ???
Originally Posted by DitzyDandelion 
hi im drunk
that is all.
01/01/2016
but, if you are up for it and want to stop
tomorrow would also be an excellent day to claim as day One
01/02/2016 ???
Happy New Year
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Some of you know me. Im the ****** poem woman lol.
Oh yes! You have tonight, you can be free.
Clasp tight to your prize, your liquid release.
Take this gift of happiness, embrace oblivion.
Dull out the hurt. I offer you peace.
What a fantastic time we will have together.
Don't you feel amazing, don't you want more?
Such an adorable lush you are. Such fun.
Black out the future, drown what came before.
These are the promises.
These are the lies.
These are the reasons.
For haunted red eyes.
This is not freedom. The cage door slams.
Shattered morning. Begging, crying, for release.
Destruction of body, tearing of mind.
Hazy hurting, never a whisper of peace.
Fun spirals into tears, into anger, regret.
Acted a fool. Caused such pain, feel such shame.
Disgusting beast, grasping for more.
Forgetting 'never again' always ends the same
But still she whispers.
Cruel clinging mistress.
She is who I am.
I am hers to posses.
We can share a little time my sweet.
Who are you anyway? without me?
We can dwell together from time to time.
It will be different now. You will see.
Look how everyone is my good friend.
Why should only you miss out?
You were broken then, you are better now.
Live a little and banish doubt.
These are the promises.
These are the lies.
Such pretty stories.
Such deceptive disguise.
Demanding my attention all of the time.
Losing sight of what is her, what is me.
Broken, broke, lost, terrified, alone.
It is never different. Never. Now I see.
A new low revealed every broken dawn.
STOP! STOP! STOP! GET OUT!
You are the one who breaks me.
You are the weaver of self doubt.
But still she whispers.
Still she tries.
Her only power.
Is in her lies.
Truth is in the sweating shaking wreck.
The broken lives and loves, the pain.
The pounding head, the forever lost days.
The wretched self loathing rising again.
Though she still whispers.
I see right through.
You hold no truth.
I am not you.
But still she whispers.
….......
Clasp tight to your prize, your liquid release.
Take this gift of happiness, embrace oblivion.
Dull out the hurt. I offer you peace.
What a fantastic time we will have together.
Don't you feel amazing, don't you want more?
Such an adorable lush you are. Such fun.
Black out the future, drown what came before.
These are the promises.
These are the lies.
These are the reasons.
For haunted red eyes.
This is not freedom. The cage door slams.
Shattered morning. Begging, crying, for release.
Destruction of body, tearing of mind.
Hazy hurting, never a whisper of peace.
Fun spirals into tears, into anger, regret.
Acted a fool. Caused such pain, feel such shame.
Disgusting beast, grasping for more.
Forgetting 'never again' always ends the same
But still she whispers.
Cruel clinging mistress.
She is who I am.
I am hers to posses.
We can share a little time my sweet.
Who are you anyway? without me?
We can dwell together from time to time.
It will be different now. You will see.
Look how everyone is my good friend.
Why should only you miss out?
You were broken then, you are better now.
Live a little and banish doubt.
These are the promises.
These are the lies.
Such pretty stories.
Such deceptive disguise.
Demanding my attention all of the time.
Losing sight of what is her, what is me.
Broken, broke, lost, terrified, alone.
It is never different. Never. Now I see.
A new low revealed every broken dawn.
STOP! STOP! STOP! GET OUT!
You are the one who breaks me.
You are the weaver of self doubt.
But still she whispers.
Still she tries.
Her only power.
Is in her lies.
Truth is in the sweating shaking wreck.
The broken lives and loves, the pain.
The pounding head, the forever lost days.
The wretched self loathing rising again.
Though she still whispers.
I see right through.
You hold no truth.
I am not you.
But still she whispers.
….......
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Dandelion, what others said - ditch the booze, go to sleep, then there will be a new day.
Do it, please.
Whatever pain you are suffering from now , you will deal with it when you are sober.
Do it, please.
Whatever pain you are suffering from now , you will deal with it when you are sober.
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It's crap isn't it?! And very difficult to tip it down the sink when you're in the throes. 
Think I've done it twice in my life and that was in the morning and the aftermath. Sounds like you don't want to drink otherwise you would not have posted without spelling mistakes. Was that your poem? It was very good. 
Tell the whisperer to talk out loud so that you know where you stand, and listen to your other voice that whispers the peace that comes with sobriety. I'm only 11 days and have been in your position many times. There's only so many times you can get back up again, noble as that might be. Class of January 2016 has a certain appeal. Hope you feel better in the morning and a new resolve if that's what you want.
Think I've done it twice in my life and that was in the morning and the aftermath. Sounds like you don't want to drink otherwise you would not have posted without spelling mistakes. Was that your poem? It was very good. Tell the whisperer to talk out loud so that you know where you stand, and listen to your other voice that whispers the peace that comes with sobriety. I'm only 11 days and have been in your position many times. There's only so many times you can get back up again, noble as that might be. Class of January 2016 has a certain appeal. Hope you feel better in the morning and a new resolve if that's what you want.
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Originally Posted by DitzyDandelion
I fell in love after a rough year then got dumped this week.
If we are to get through these events sober we must remember that sobriety must always come first.
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thank you ladies n gents. Ive been beaten torn and broken and coped. I asked his best friend why losing him was so much harder she said the abuser made you numb he made you feel. Shes an ex drinker sober many years and is looking out for me.
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Originally Posted by Nonsensical
Your AV can't be very happy with you for posting here when you're drunk.
Wanna really **** it off? Pour out the rest and go to bed.
Wanna really **** it off? Pour out the rest and go to bed.
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There are a million excuses to drink. There are even a few good ones but unfortunately all excuses good or bad lead to the same place.
We need to stop digging if we are ever going to get out of the hole we are in
We need to stop digging if we are ever going to get out of the hole we are in
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