ulfr

Sorry keep screwing up
my husband is getting sick of me saying block it or unblock it
its the last time he is block there (the pro ed forum )
Am at 0 again
Cant seem to get away from it it on my mind all the time
but i need to try and stay focused
I think once the new year is over and i go to groups that i like to go to ill be busy and not so focus on this and i can get on with things


My mental health is bad and today i just found out am seeing a different psych in FEB
going to go back to church get involved with the church more

saoutchik

Be strong Lily, I know New Year is a big deal in Edinburgh

ulfr

Thank you
yea they have the street party and the one o clock gun goes off for at the start of the year me and my husband have a small party with just ourself and the cats
trying not to let me eating disorder or other problems effect our little party
going to have pizza my husband having some too
I just going to eat what i can manage to
Unsure what time we are going to bed but new years day morning most people are in bed with a hang over
i dont miss it
I THINK ILL JUST HANG OUT HERE FOR NEW YEARS

saoutchik

Yes, stay sober and we need never have another hangover. Technically this will be my second sober New Year but I was still hungover and ill last year

sugarbear1

Have you tried CBT with your therapist? It helped my niece with her ed

resolute50

One of my favorite things to do is take a walk on New Years morning.
It's like the world is empty for a short time.
Some nice quiet time to talk with God.

Yes, please stick close to here.
I will be hanging out here from time to time during New Years night.
My wife and I watch TV and eat snacks till midnight.
You can do this and stay sober. Start a new book entitled "My Sober Year is born".

ulfr

Yes i see a therapist but am next weeks appointment is the last one as she cant see my permanently she given me the tools i just need to use them
i see my new psych in FEB
She was given me sessions because of my OCD made me want to hurt other people that has gotten better i wish i had a more permanent therapist but i am not ill enough for that

ulfr

I like the idea for going for a walk new years morning but id have a hard time getting my husband up for a walk
I love your avatar of a wolf/ dog i love animals myself he /she is beautiful

Dee74

Keep the site blocked - what good does a pro ED site do you?

I'll be around NYE, so will many others

D

least

I agree with Dee. Block the site. It's not good for you.

Anna

I agree that blocking the site for good is the way to go.

I'll be here on New Year's Eve, too.

ulfr

To me i think if i lose weight ill be perfect but no one is perfect
me included
I want to be thin thinking that the pro ed forum will help
thinking that am worth something thinking people will like me if am thin
people love the way i am now so i shouldnt change for other people
I should change for myself
My husband says he loves me no matter what size i am

new year new start
might see if i can go to OA get some help with this eating disorder

Dee74

I think a pro ED site is like a pro drinking site or a pro heroin site.

It's sharing the sickness and not the solution, Lily.

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PurpleKnight

Hang in there Lily, should be plenty around on NYE!!

ulfr

yes you right ...i am taking one day at a time

unsure what to do with my self today
only just got up and i am thinking about that forum i know shouldnt
So instead am listen to christian music going to watch a film later once my husband comes back from shopping
the weather is bad here very windy and raining

Dee74

I hope you have a good day Lily

D

Soberwolf

Best wishes Lilly there will be lots of ppl around NYE

ALinNS

I have found stay sober and my mind clears, when my mind clears I have control as long as I am not mentally exhausted this AV we talk about has no power, it's like a caged animal, so balance will keep that (clear/logical mind) in check, the fog will clear from drinking and you have control. I really believe in this AV we have trying to get us to pick up, since Dec 12th it has had no power in my life but I am using every resource I can get my hands on re recover and I made a promise to myself that I would never drink again, that if I get weak I will play the tape through as to what will happen. I made a plan and come hell or high water I will follow it. I wish you the very best, tough time of the year and beating alcohol in itself, at least for me, was tough enough, at some point very soon I will not have to live one moment at a time, I will be free and in complete control and I can relate with mental illness as I suffer from PTSD and used alcohol for over 30 years to medicate it, now I am dealing with it head on and so far it's working.