How to deal with it?
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How to deal with it?
I am s scared. I just actually relized i have a problem. When looking back i should have a year ago. I have been drinking alone until i pass out probably 30 times, did coke until there was nothing left as many times i could. Showed up at work drunk. Called people, fighting.. I always thought it was just boys being boys.
After just doing one key of coke today and ending up drinking two bottles of vodka and 1,5 grams.. I get it..
Maybe I should talk to someone.
Not many people know since i do it alone. I never thought of it as a big deal anyway. How will my life be after this? I am so in the dark now
After just doing one key of coke today and ending up drinking two bottles of vodka and 1,5 grams.. I get it..
Maybe I should talk to someone.
Not many people know since i do it alone. I never thought of it as a big deal anyway. How will my life be after this? I am so in the dark now
I could see peace instead of this
Join Date: Sep 2013
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Welcome to SR, Brik. You're in the right place; we've all been where you're at now.
Just stopping drinking by itself never worked long for me--it was too miserable doing it that way. Stick around and keep reading and posting and you'll figure out what you need to do.
If you put some work into it, life will get better, even though you can't see that now.
Just stopping drinking by itself never worked long for me--it was too miserable doing it that way. Stick around and keep reading and posting and you'll figure out what you need to do.
If you put some work into it, life will get better, even though you can't see that now.
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Welcome, Brik. I'm recently rejoining after a year-long relapse, and I am also scared and struggling. My advice (to you and to myself) is to surround yourself with people who are willing to help and provide support. Miraculously, the world is filled with people who have been where we are and actively want to help pull folks like us out of the horror show and into a place of peace. For myself, anyway, my addiction will stop at nothing to isolate me ("they don't understand you." "They are going to judge you." "People are cruel." Etc.) so that I'll turn to it instead of the helping hands of other people. At least that's been my experience. At any rate, I recommend finding people in recovery and staying very close and asking for help when you need it - this forum, AA, or any other number of options. Again, welcome.
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Welcome to the Forum Brik!! 
For me when I finally parting ways with alcohol on a permanent basis my life started to look more positive, no more destructive behaviour, no more chaos, I was firmly back in control of my life and could write a new chapter to my story on my own terms.
You can do it too!!
For me when I finally parting ways with alcohol on a permanent basis my life started to look more positive, no more destructive behaviour, no more chaos, I was firmly back in control of my life and could write a new chapter to my story on my own terms.
You can do it too!!
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glad yer here,brick. thereIS life after alcohol/drugs- one that can be better than anything you dream of.
it was rather scary thinkin what life without em would be like. something that kept me trudging early on and working on me-
the thought of what life with them still in my life was going to be like.
which i didnt have alife. i was just existing.
took a lot of work to get where i am today- peaceful, content, love myself and life, and have absolutely no desire to drink/drug.
well worth every second of fight.
it was rather scary thinkin what life without em would be like. something that kept me trudging early on and working on me-
the thought of what life with them still in my life was going to be like.
which i didnt have alife. i was just existing.
took a lot of work to get where i am today- peaceful, content, love myself and life, and have absolutely no desire to drink/drug.
well worth every second of fight.
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Welcome to SR. I was scared about what life would be like without drinking. How would I manage? I had to have support. Life is better now than before. I learned that I didn't have to reach for the bottle to feel better. But I had to quit drinking completely to figure that out. Stick around and read and post.
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I to am scared and joined this forum today. Today I am saying I am an alcoholic and I need help. I am scared about what will be like as this is the only one I have known. I always told myself I could control it, but I always end up in the same place....full of shame and hurting the ones I love, and myself. Tomorrow I am going to my first meeting and working on a new life free of the grip of alcohol. I have run out of excuses.
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Originally Posted by BobbyLight 
Tomorrow I am going to my first meeting and working on a new life free of the grip of alcohol. I have run out of excuses.
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Welcome Brik, and I think it's normal to feel afraid at this point. Yes, your life will change, but I think you will embrace your new, sober life. You can become the person you want to be.
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