It gets better
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One year ago I was 3 months sober. It was still pretty rough with a lot of emotional upheaval. I was very busy "not drinking." PAWS was kicking in pretty good which made my short-term memory so bad that I seriously feared I was ruined for life.
As I write this today I'm sitting in an airport for my flight home to Canada from a week long family Christmas at a warm, sunny beach destination. As I sat here it struck me that alcohol did not cross my mind once during the trip other than naturally skipping over a restaurant waiter's entree suggestion when I heard the word "wine sauce." That realization gives me a warm glow that alcohol could never come close to touching. I don't know how I could feel better in any way....well except for that pesky holiday weight gain, but that can be dealt with in fairly short order.
If you are new and struggling, be assured that what seems impossible today can become your new reality. It takes work and dedication and isn't always easy, but it pays off in the end. It does get better.
As I write this today I'm sitting in an airport for my flight home to Canada from a week long family Christmas at a warm, sunny beach destination. As I sat here it struck me that alcohol did not cross my mind once during the trip other than naturally skipping over a restaurant waiter's entree suggestion when I heard the word "wine sauce." That realization gives me a warm glow that alcohol could never come close to touching. I don't know how I could feel better in any way....well except for that pesky holiday weight gain, but that can be dealt with in fairly short order.
If you are new and struggling, be assured that what seems impossible today can become your new reality. It takes work and dedication and isn't always easy, but it pays off in the end. It does get better.
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Wonderful post, Lance! Congratulations on this milestone and thank you for sharing it.
You really hit on something in your observations about the earliest days of sobriety. They are hard and even fearful.
It gets better. It really gets better.
And, BTW, lucky you! A week at a sunny beach sounds heavenly -- and how great to enjoy sober.
You really hit on something in your observations about the earliest days of sobriety. They are hard and even fearful.
It gets better. It really gets better.
And, BTW, lucky you! A week at a sunny beach sounds heavenly -- and how great to enjoy sober.
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Originally Posted by Lance40 
As I sat here it struck me that alcohol did not cross my mind once during the trip other than naturally skipping over a restaurant waiter's entree suggestion when I heard the word "wine sauce." That realization gives me a warm glow that alcohol could never come close to touching. I don't know how I could feel better in any way
Happy New Year,
M-Bob
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Thank you, Lance. That's good to know. I've been sober since Oct . 18th and went through some slight w/d while in detox. But I've noticed I'm forgetting things and feeling anxious (anxiety is probably related to the divorce.) I couldn't find a Xmas gift from my mom, then 12 hours later remembered I'd already put it away. Had to wonder if I was drinking in my sleep! Thanks again.
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