ulfr

I have some good news regarding the pro eating disorder forum
my husband managed to get a site blocker and blocked it
he will not give me the password no matter what the eating disorder is still here i going to struggling at Christmas dinner but thankfully its just me and my husband and i dont have to eat everything on the plate
my husband has been told to lose weight for his back and legs ( he getting pain in his back and legs and he is only 29 the bed we have isnt good at all we are hoping to get a new bed at some point next year )and i need to loses weight the right way of doing it not by starving myself
i know am going to gain weight for Christmas and new year but after then me and my husband are planning on getting fit together going to the gym once a week and walking places instead of getting the bus
all the time
i hope you will all have a merry Christmas

Soberwolf

Merry Christmas TryPraying

JD

That sounds good but try to get to the gym more than once a week. Until it becomes a new habit is too easy to say "let's slip today" And then today becomes forever. Just me 2 cents.

ulfr

we cant afford to go to the gym twice a week we are on disability benefits( mental health reasons ) its £10 for both of us to go once and we get money off with a membership card )we do however have a cross trainer and can use that for when we cant go to the gym but we have to do something about my motivation as i find it hard to motivate myself

PurpleKnight

Sounds like a positive way forward TryPraying . . . Merry Christmas!!

Dee74

I'm, glad you were able to block that site TP. I hope you & your husband have a good Xmas

Berrybean

It might be worth chatting to your GP if you are on benefits, as they may be able to refer you for subsidised gym membership on health grounds at your local council-run gym.

The other thing that might be worth giving a go are the NHS couch 2 5k podcasts and do some exercise out in the fresh air. I've used them and they're really good for motivating and building up gradually. Couch to 5K - Live Well - NHS Choices
I'm going to give these another go and try to get so I can enjoy the free Park Runs in my area once I'm comfortably doing 5k. Your Edinburgh one looks good as well... http://www.parkrun.org.uk/edinburgh/

And good on your hubby for blocking that website

Anna

Merry Christmas, TP and I hope you motivate yourself to being fit.

ulfr

The thing that blocked the ed site made my laptop crash
we are trying to look for other thing that can block it
so the ed site am able to go on to
Am making myself stay off
scared about tomorrow as its a lot of food and i dont want to make it one big binge ....I have had dinner veggie nut cutlet , veg and fries but even that feels too much wanted to purge after but i didnt
THIS IS HELL id never wish this on anyone
my husband says am better off without it
CAN I COME HERE ANY TIME ?
WHEN I FEEL AT MY WORSE AND WHEN I FEEL AT MY BEST
ALL I WANT TO DO THIS CRY but am too scared to let it out
I shouldnt be like this
WHY AM I NOT NORMAL ?

ulfr

thank you
Ill talk to my dr and see what she says
Am not very fit i cant run to save myself am obese and i can only just run for the bus and then am tired out i can walk however and i can start walking most of the time and not going on buses so i can get fit good thing is my husband wants to get fit too

ulfr

Hold it all together
Everybody needs you strong
But life hits you out of nowhere
And barely leaves you holding on

And when youre tired of fighting
Chained by your control
Theres freedom in surrender
Lay it down and let it go

So when youre on your knees and answers seem so far away
Youre not alone, stop holding on and just be held
Your worlds not falling apart, its falling into place
Im on the throne, stop holding on and just be held
Just be held, just be held

If your eyes are on the storm
Youll wonder if I love you still
But if your eyes are on the cross
Youll know I always have and I always will

And not a tear is wasted
In time, youll understand
Im painting beauty with the ashes
Your life is in My hands

Lift your hands, lift your eyes
In the storm is where youll find Me
And where you are, Ill hold your heart
Ill hold your heart
Come to Me, find your rest
In the arms of the God who wont let go

Upwardspiral

It's okay to be sad and to cry, TryPraying. It's scary because it seems like if you open the floodgates you will never be able to stop, but in my experience it helps to get it all out in a big sob.
You can't just give up and wallow in sadness, but you can't push it down forever either.
Sometimes when I'm really overwhelmed I have a good 20 minute cry and then feel more able to get on with my day.
Hope Christmas dinner is pleasant for you and hubby.

MythOfSisyphus

Hang in there, Try! It sounds like you're making progress. It may be slow but you'll get there.

Berrybean

That's why I love those NHS podcasts - that's where they start from. You can repeat weeks until you're ready to move to the next one. If you follow the link you can read what it asks you to do in the first week (mostly walking with a tiny bit of jogging).

Good luck with the doctors. There might be other referrals they can give as well. I knew one lady who had a referral for Slimming World as well. I think it depends a lot on your area and your GP, and the extent of your weight problem.