things with me
 

at the start of the month i tried to kill myself am not going to put the method here but my husband caught me in time
I was lucky my husband is worried about me my dr and Therapist is worried about me but they will not ip me because they say am better off at home
Been on the ed forums been self injuring and pulling my hair out not been drinking or taking drugs but i am still screwing myself over with this stuff today keep going into the pro eating disorder forum a but av not done any thing like starving my self so am unsure if am on day 1 or day 0
i want drink people in the pro ed forums talking about drugs and drink
been feeling like i need it
Not going to have any at all not even for my birthday on wed
Am getting too old for this shhh need to grow the hell up and stop acting like a teenager am going to be 39 years old on wed
BACK TO THE START AGAIN :wtf1:

Welcome back Alexx. I know you had a Dr appointment the other day, how did it go?

it went ok the dr said i need other way of expressing my rather than hairpulling and self and the pro ed forums i do art like colour in books and writing my feels down more going to try and stay away from that pro ed forums i cant block it as i have tryed to my hub you have to pay for it and we cant afford that
we have other things to pay for
Unsure if we can afford to get something for each other to get something
and there is my birthday it will be a sober birthday and Christmas / new year
i might hang out here if that ok i know your all sick of me changing me name all the time yip am a pain in the bottom :a043:

You're not a pain and we understand the name changes.

You can definitely hang out here as much as you like.

Happy Birthday for Wednesday!

Good to see you back & wanting to talk about what's going on. We all care.

Hi TryPraying

I'm really glad you're still with us TP.

I think somethings are more than just growing up though - some of us have to deal with other issues besides alcoholism or drug abuse.

I'm really glad you have your Dr, your Therapist and your husband beside you :)

Pleas take care of yourself and do whatever you need to to stay well.

D

Feel like self injuring i should just go to bed
am yawning so am off for the night
:You_Rock_