MIRecovery

I often post I have a life that is better than anything I could have imagined. While this statement is 100% true from my perspective that does not mean life is all rainbows and unicorns.

I am sure it is the holidays but the last week has been hard, very hard. This will be the second Christmas without my daughter and I miss her so badly. The first year after her death I think I was still in shock and not totally out of denial.

This year the true impact is only to real. She is gone and is never coming back. I have memories but that will be all I will ever have. She wanted me sober, I got sober and then she left at least left this reality.

So tonight I am enjoying a pity party but it is a sober pity party. Throughout this nightmare I had two choices. Make it through the most horrific event a person can go through sober or make an unbelievably bad situation worse by drinking. I thank God, AA, professional help and a lot of people I love that I am writing this sober.

Many experience hardships in sobriety but they are not an excuse to drink because I am a firm believer in, "There is no problem alcohol won't make worse."

If there is one word of advice I can give. Never waste the days you are given by drinking and drugging because you never know when those that you love will no longer be there.

Dee74

MIR I know that your daughter would want peace for you, and a respite from sadness, this Christmas.

I hope you have a safe and happy Holidays

D

SoberLeigh

Thank you, MIR, for this beautiful and poignant post.

Sean30

Powerful post MIRecovery, thank you.
You are one tough guy

least

Thank you for sharing.

Opivotal

Sending you my warmest wishes this Christmas, IMIRecovery.

ZeldaFan

Very powerful stuff and a very important message to remember. I'm sorry for your loss. Every day you live sober you are honoring your daughter. I'm sure she is looking down on you proud as could ever be.

Gonnachange

I'm profoundly sorry for your loss. As a parent I can not imagine how I would find the resolve to deal with the death of one of my children. You're strong, clearly, and thank you for reminding everyone that nothing should be taken for granted as all can change in the blink of an eye.

Rio97

Sorry for you loss MIRecovery. May you find some peace over the holidays.

Leshar

Thinking of you and sending warm wishes.

Hope2014

Sending you hugs. Your commitment to being sober is an inspiration.

FLCamper

I can't imagine enduring that. I'll say a prayer for you.
You're right - there is no problem that alcohol won't make worse.

JD

Thank you for posting MIR. I'm so sorry for your lose. But I'm sure your daughter is looking down on you from heaven with a big smile of happiness and pride for her father.

Dharma33

((((((mir))))))

lilgolden73

I feel terrible, I whine and cry over hubby's death but have never lost a child and I should shut the hell UP! ((((Hugs))))

GroundhogDay

MIR,

I, too, am so sorry for your loss and believe that your beautiful daughter is there with you in spirit and love this Christmas season.

keeppushing

So sorry for your loss.

Soberwolf

Thank you

kamm

You are an inspiration in your strength and sobriety. Thank you for sharing all these emotions and letting us learn from you in this time of pain.

I wish you peace over the holidays. Praying for you and your family.

Carlotta

MIR
Your wonderful bittersweet post brought tears to my eyes. Praying that you find some solace in knowing that sharing your e.s.h reaches and helps so many of us.