Never drinking again
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Never drinking again
"I will never drink again" was something I posted on this forum over a year ago that led to my first relapse in September 2014. After getting back in the sobriety wagon I vowed never to say that again. Months went by and the passing thought of never drinking again scared the poop out of me. So I wouldn't even allow myself to thing that way. Triggered by someone's post on here this morning, I thought about it. The growth I have achieved in 15 months is astounding. The thought of not drinking doesn't scare me anymore. I don't need to drink today, I have no desire to drink, even when things get rough, and I am very happy to know that I don't have to waste anymore time in that panicked, clouded, insane thinking. I still live one day at a time, and I still won't say out loud those dreaded words "I'm never drinking again". I still won't even think it. I'm not going to drink today and that's all that matters. It gets better!
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Originally Posted by countrygirl2014 
The growth I have achieved in 15 months is astounding.
Jennifer
Still maturing here at 64 years old.
Yes, it's about time Mountainman.
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The thought of not drinking doesn't scare me anymore. I don't need to drink today, I have no desire to drink, even when things get rough, and I am very happy to know that I don't have to waste anymore time in that panicked, clouded, insane thinking
I get your point but I find nothing scary in uttering those magic 5 words either.
You didn't relapse because you said that
the AVs hanging by a thread Jennifer - I hope you'll be able to say 'those words' one day soon enough and cut that thread for good
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