Enough Already,last Chance....
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Enough Already,last Chance....
HOW MANY TIMES CAN I CHEAT DEATH?I'VE BEEN DOING THAT FOR SO MANY YEARS.
COMES A TIME WHEN LIFE HITS YOU LIKE A TON OF BRICKS.DO OR DIE.
I AM FORTUNATE TO BE HERE TODAY.I FIGURE THAT I MUST HAVE A WORTHWHILE PURPOSE TO BE HERE.
I'M THINKING I'VE BEEN THROUGH ALL THIS SH1T FOR A REASON.
I KNOW WITH ALL THE LIFE'S LESSONS THAT I'VE ACCUMULATED,I CAN HELP SOMEONE ELSE.
QUIT BEING SO DAMN SELFISH,GIVE NOT TAKE.
POOR ME LOOK HOW BAD I GOT IT,BULLSH1T.
I'M VERY FORTUNATE,I HAVE TO BE GRATEFUL FOR WHAT I'VE BEEN BLESSED WITH.
JUST LOOKING AT THE WORLD TODAY,I GOT IT PRETTY GOOD.
I CAN NO LONGER LIVE LIKE IT'S ALL ABOUT ME.
I WILL DO WHATEVER IT TAKES TO GET THIS THING YOU CALL SERENITY.
THANK YOU ALL,I'VE GAINED MUCH FROM EACH AND EVERYONE OF YOU.
I'LL BE SEEING YOU,I'M A FIXTURE YA KNOW........ted
COMES A TIME WHEN LIFE HITS YOU LIKE A TON OF BRICKS.DO OR DIE.
I AM FORTUNATE TO BE HERE TODAY.I FIGURE THAT I MUST HAVE A WORTHWHILE PURPOSE TO BE HERE.
I'M THINKING I'VE BEEN THROUGH ALL THIS SH1T FOR A REASON.
I KNOW WITH ALL THE LIFE'S LESSONS THAT I'VE ACCUMULATED,I CAN HELP SOMEONE ELSE.
QUIT BEING SO DAMN SELFISH,GIVE NOT TAKE.
POOR ME LOOK HOW BAD I GOT IT,BULLSH1T.
I'M VERY FORTUNATE,I HAVE TO BE GRATEFUL FOR WHAT I'VE BEEN BLESSED WITH.
JUST LOOKING AT THE WORLD TODAY,I GOT IT PRETTY GOOD.
I CAN NO LONGER LIVE LIKE IT'S ALL ABOUT ME.
I WILL DO WHATEVER IT TAKES TO GET THIS THING YOU CALL SERENITY.
THANK YOU ALL,I'VE GAINED MUCH FROM EACH AND EVERYONE OF YOU.
I'LL BE SEEING YOU,I'M A FIXTURE YA KNOW........ted
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I'M THINKING I'VE BEEN THROUGH ALL THIS SH1T FOR A REASON.
I KNOW WITH ALL THE LIFE'S LESSONS THAT I'VE ACCUMULATED,I CAN HELP SOMEONE ELSE.
I KNOW WITH ALL THE LIFE'S LESSONS THAT I'VE ACCUMULATED,I CAN HELP SOMEONE ELSE.
We love you, Ted. Keep on keepin' on!!!
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hi rockster!
fyi, your posts have been very encouraging to me. you are honest and you are trying. that is great!
im not sure if i shared this before, but i cant sleep so here goes.
ive cheated death many times. i think enough times that i still think of playing around with it. like i am invincible or something? the last time i used, i certainly cheated death. a friend of mine's father had been beaten almost to death by a shot out tweaker who got too high. and i was shacked up with the shot out tweakers babys dad. i was smoking and shooting all his stuff. then, there was this split second where i actually had a sane thought - "i am good as dead in this situation" i thought. it was like a time warp in which i actually put down my "tools" and looked up and that thought totally consumed me. i have no idea where it came from, but it really got me moving. i knew if i analyzed it anymore i would continue getting twacked. well actually, i was still falling asleep even though i was using all his s*** because i hadnt slept in a while. so i did a last hit and got in my car. i drove straight home with every intention of just crashing the f*** out. i look back fondly on that moment, because i just followed my one thought of "i am as good as dead" right back to my moms house and i plopped down on the couch. i just was tired and i had unsightly sores on my body and the gosh darn crawling bug thing made me make the sores worse.
thank you for your post. i rarely think to remember that incident. but, its great to be reminded of do or die situations. and i think that was my first moment of real "freedom" of sorts.
hang in there dude!
hugs,
dot :rose
fyi, your posts have been very encouraging to me. you are honest and you are trying. that is great!
im not sure if i shared this before, but i cant sleep so here goes.
ive cheated death many times. i think enough times that i still think of playing around with it. like i am invincible or something? the last time i used, i certainly cheated death. a friend of mine's father had been beaten almost to death by a shot out tweaker who got too high. and i was shacked up with the shot out tweakers babys dad. i was smoking and shooting all his stuff. then, there was this split second where i actually had a sane thought - "i am good as dead in this situation" i thought. it was like a time warp in which i actually put down my "tools" and looked up and that thought totally consumed me. i have no idea where it came from, but it really got me moving. i knew if i analyzed it anymore i would continue getting twacked. well actually, i was still falling asleep even though i was using all his s*** because i hadnt slept in a while. so i did a last hit and got in my car. i drove straight home with every intention of just crashing the f*** out. i look back fondly on that moment, because i just followed my one thought of "i am as good as dead" right back to my moms house and i plopped down on the couch. i just was tired and i had unsightly sores on my body and the gosh darn crawling bug thing made me make the sores worse.
thank you for your post. i rarely think to remember that incident. but, its great to be reminded of do or die situations. and i think that was my first moment of real "freedom" of sorts.
hang in there dude!
hugs,
dot :rose
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Ted,
I truly believe that nothings happens by coinsidence. I believe God had a reason for everything that happens to us. I am one of the someone's you have helped already. You sound so hopeful, like you really want this. Just keep hanging on. I'm praying for you.
Love,
Sherry
I truly believe that nothings happens by coinsidence. I believe God had a reason for everything that happens to us. I am one of the someone's you have helped already. You sound so hopeful, like you really want this. Just keep hanging on. I'm praying for you.
Love,
Sherry
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((Ted)) My life wouldn't be the same if I hadn't met you on here!! This Lil One loves you, and I believe HP is shining a big bright light on you!! Wearing my shades here! LOL
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Yeah, guys - there is not one person that has cornered the market on bad things happening. If anyone figures it out, let me know!!
I just figure that life is not supposed to be lived being drunk, having constant hangovers and not being the best person you can be.
At least now, it seems like when the bad things happen, I can deal with them effectively.
Wow Dot, I had the exact same experience you did! The last time I got drunk (10/4/03), I got locked out of my house. I basically sat outside and in my garage and had a revelation of sorts; and this time it did feel different. And I did experience a freedom or serenity type feeling. Not as dramatic, but probably cheating death all the same!
Maybe, for the first time, I knew I needed help!
Dave
I just figure that life is not supposed to be lived being drunk, having constant hangovers and not being the best person you can be.
At least now, it seems like when the bad things happen, I can deal with them effectively.
Wow Dot, I had the exact same experience you did! The last time I got drunk (10/4/03), I got locked out of my house. I basically sat outside and in my garage and had a revelation of sorts; and this time it did feel different. And I did experience a freedom or serenity type feeling. Not as dramatic, but probably cheating death all the same!
Maybe, for the first time, I knew I needed help!
Dave
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Ted,
That's the way to think. If there's one thing I learned it's that I'm lucky to be here and there's a purpose for my life. I'm determined to live the best life I can.
You are such an inspiration Ted!!
Love, Anna
That's the way to think. If there's one thing I learned it's that I'm lucky to be here and there's a purpose for my life. I'm determined to live the best life I can.
You are such an inspiration Ted!!
Love, Anna
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