Happy Birthday to me, I guess
 

All I wanted to do is get drunk, so I did. After I was drunk, all I wanted to do is be alone, so I am. And I am sad, and lonely, and old.

Aww retro, go get a good rest, then find a better way to celebrate tomorrow. Stop by sr, we'll help cheer you up.

And, if you have any more booze...throw it away.

I wont be able to throw it away, but good advice anyway

I'm sorry you fell to the birthday blues retroactive.,
JK's right tho....

Pour out whatever you have left, go drink some water, get some rest.

Don't think about it, don't argue about it...just pick that booze up and tip it down the sink. Make tomorrow day one.

Tomorrows another day - and as good as any other for Recovery Vers. 2.0 :)

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You FEEL old and feel lonely. The booze causes that. Pour it out and feel better tomorrow.
Happy birthday, btw

*pours another shot*

Well, happy birthday anyway Retroactive.:grouphug:

It's you waking up to this pouring another shot is only delaying the inevitable

What do you want from us retroactive?

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As your posting, I'd guess something inside still realises this isn't a sustainable way forward.

Why not have a slice of happiness for yourself, in the same way others have, it's not beyond your grasp.

Put the drink down, get some rest, reqroup, come back and go out and make it happen.

SR is in your corner!! :grouphug:

No one here is going to tell you what to do, tell you if are an alcoholic and make rules for you. We are not really getting much information from you so it is hard find something useful to say!
Please give us a little more info.

The shot isn't going to make you any younger or any less lonely, but it might just speed up the process of ageing beyond your years and feeling lonlier in the process.

Did you want to feel old and lonely because you wanted to drink? Or are you feeling old and lonely because you are drinking? I can always justify my drinking.

I'm getting old regardless of whether I'm drinking or not but I've found myself enjoying life more now that I'm sober.

What birthday is this? Happy birthday.

Happy Birthday Retroactive. Tomorrow is a new day. Let us in, maybe he can help you out... but you've got to be willing to give us a chance.

Happy Birthday! Make this next year of your life a sober one! Enjoy!

Well, Retroactive...

I used to dread my birthday - young years of exciting delusions are gone, and with every year this darn BDay is like a one-year harder punch in the gut - time is running out, hope is fading away, cemetery of dreams and goals got another fresh grave...

It was especially hard closer to the night - BDay was about to be over, a few calls from friends, nothing "like normal people have", and this chilling emptiness inside. And a "diligent right" to treat myself to a bottle of "more expensive than usual" wine and Champaigne to add was the only bright spot.

Now I have 3 wine-champainge-booze-poison-free Birthdays. They rock. I am not afraid any more. This year right on my BDay I got a job interview which turned into getting the job I absolutely love.

With emotions sorted out and constantly improving filter "what is really important vs what is conventionally accepted" I am less prone to melancholy and overreaction.

What is Birthday, anyway. A date, a milestone. My day - my rules.

So, you drank. You are alone. You a year older.

Now there's a new day.

Make it Day 1.

Then in a year you will find yourself in much better place. Sober. One year happier.

Give it a try. Keep posting.

I couldn't and wouldn't stop drinking
on my own and now I am very thankful
that my family stepped in with an intervention
to get me into a safe place to help me heal
and receive some much needed education
on addiction and its affects on myself and
others around me.

I received the gift of a recovery program
to incorporate in all my affairs to remain
sober one day at a time.

That was 25 yrs ago. 21 days instay rehab
with a 6 week outpatiant aftercare program
attached to help me begin my recovery
journey in life that I continue to travel along.

I took many suggestions passed on to me
to help me learn how to live a healthy, happy,
honest life as well as accepting people, places
and things just as they are suppose to be in
life because I have no control over them.

I also learned about letting go of resentments
that kept me sick within my addiction. Asking
for help when needed and not be ashamed of
it. Along with many other awesome lessons Ive
learned along the way and continue today.

Alcohol addiction was like acid eating away
at me from the inside out destroying my heart,
mind and soul.

It wasn't until I let go of the poison and
replaced it with a recovery program that
I began to heal and regain my youth.

I was 30 when I entered recovery and
today in almost 57 and feel as young
as a healthy age of hmmmmm???? 30ish. :)

I don't think I want to ever feel old even
when I do get old....lol

A program of recovery is a wonderful
awesome gift to give yourself beginning
now. :)