Relapsed after rehab
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Relapsed after rehab
So I went to an inpatient program for 12 days. That's all my insurance would cover. I lasted 3 days and then went on a 7 day bender. I'm so disappointed in myself. Have to start all over again. Going to an outpatient program now though. Had orientation today. Just don't get why some days it's so easy and others so hard. Think I need to find a sponsor too.
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I had to just hang on through the discomfort.
Early sobriety is very uncomfortable - but the discomfort didn't harm me the way the drinking did.
Are you currently going to AA? If you need a sponsor, say a prayer that one appears for you.
Early sobriety is very uncomfortable - but the discomfort didn't harm me the way the drinking did.
Are you currently going to AA? If you need a sponsor, say a prayer that one appears for you.
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Why don't you look up the meeting schedule right now and make it a firm commitment? When I was going to meetings in early sobriety I kept a meeting schedule with me at all times, and I went to the same one every day at 10 AM. It's important to really make a strong daily commitment..
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I think getting a sponsor and hitting some meetings sounds like a good plan lostgirl. You were sober for 12 days in rehab so you know for a fact that it's possible to live without alcohol.
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Originally Posted by Ruby2 
Hang in there. Were you offered follow up care after being discharged from inpatient? Maybe you can sign up for that in addition to attending meetings.
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Just want to drink so I don't feel so awful
The problem is, drinking to feel better only works for a few hours. Then you will feel even more awful.
I've been in that cycle before, it's an awful place to be.
AA and this website were the keys for me getting, and staying, sober. I've got several sober years under my belt now, I don't ever want to go back to where I was. You can get sober to, although as I found out, I couldn't do it by myself. That's where the face to face part of AA really helped.
The problem is, drinking to feel better only works for a few hours. Then you will feel even more awful.
I've been in that cycle before, it's an awful place to be.
AA and this website were the keys for me getting, and staying, sober. I've got several sober years under my belt now, I don't ever want to go back to where I was. You can get sober to, although as I found out, I couldn't do it by myself. That's where the face to face part of AA really helped.
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one day. It takes time to achieve
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and hopes of what your life was and
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Yes I don't know why it's so hard some days and so easy others, either. Sometimes one drink is enough, other days a desire for one drink can lead to a major relapse.
That's why I find I must be always aware of my life threatening illness and on a daily basis make it my highest priority not to drink. When I start forgetting I have this condition and feel normal again is when I slip up.
That could be what happened with you. You felt that since you had some sober time behind you, you could be a normal drinker, or "one won't hurt". Very common. But give yourself some credit for going to rehab and then coming back to this board instead of just throwing your hands up.
That's why I find I must be always aware of my life threatening illness and on a daily basis make it my highest priority not to drink. When I start forgetting I have this condition and feel normal again is when I slip up.
That could be what happened with you. You felt that since you had some sober time behind you, you could be a normal drinker, or "one won't hurt". Very common. But give yourself some credit for going to rehab and then coming back to this board instead of just throwing your hands up.
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You're here and that's a good thing. I am part of an outpatient community programme as well as AA and though I'm newly sober after relapsing, the community programme has got a big place in my sobriety. Really embrace the sober tools you have and you can do this :-)
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