blueberry2015

Im going to bed sober again tonight, I spoke up in AA about something which was very difficult to speak about. Once I said it I could feel the anger rising in me about a situation which was NO fault of my own. Believe me not even the personal inventory can I take ANY responsibilty of what happened, I was a victim. End of Full Stop. Anyhow the urge to drink was overwhelming but I knew if I drank this evening that anger would come flying on out and I would smash my house up. I chose not to drink but somehow and I dont know how managed to calm my anger down. Im proud of myself. Ive never done that before. But I know no amount of drink or rage will change what happened. To say to myself, you handled that well is quite an achievement.

IronPhoenix

Good for you blueberry2015. Now build on that small victory with another one!

Hevyn

Proud of you, blueberry. We know how difficult it is.

Dee74

I'm really proud blueberry - thats a great leap forward.

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Anna

I'm glad you got through that Blueberry!

zombob

That was pretty major Blue! Truly you just stopped me from walking to the store(already had shoes and jacket on). You know those cartoons that show a pavement roller flattening characters? Yup, that was me the last 40 hrs or so and I managed to make it to bed early last night and did a lot of walking today but... then I read this post and said eff-it to the drink. I'm more prone to say eff-it to life but something in your post said yes to life--whatever it may bring. Thanks.To quote Dora (I have a 5 yr old) "We did it!"

Notimetoloose

That is great. Be very proud of yourself..it sounds like a real revelation....

sleepie

Way to go blueberry I know that you can do it

MIRecovery

That is the wonderful thing about sobriety we begin to learn how to deal with life on life's terms.

Congrats! You did well

Soberwolf

You done great Blue